Filling Station Called Other

Filling station called other

There is a filling station called other. Depraved persons visit there, to go from empty to temporarily, almost, full. They frequent places where people roam, sometimes secretly, sometimes openly, looking to satiate, looking to satisfy. Once they have found someone from whom they can draw, they will begin the emptying of other, and the filling of self.

Living outside of relating

A depraved person never apologizes; that wouldn't make sense to them, since they don't understand the concept of wrong doing: when challenged, their thoughts run along these lines: I am right, what would I be sorry for? Justifying what they think, what they say, what they do, isn't required. They don't have to explain to anyone: they are perfectly ok, in their own being, living outside of relating. 

Perpetually devoid of substance

I imagine demons: they don't have sympathy for humans, they don't have sympathy for each other. Demons are needy and greedy, and the self is all there is, demanding that all their time is spend in attempts to fill the void, the emptiness, the abyss that continually sucks at their spirit, pulling at them with no relief. No matter the manner in which they seek satisfaction, they are perpetually devoid of substance. It is their godlessness that keeps them in a state of deprivation. Thus the filling station...

Unholy retched combination

Thus, the filling station... demons and humans, now there is an unholy retched combination. Demons are spirit, and have no hands, no feet, no body to perform the wickedness they crave, to curb their insatiable appetites to devour all that is alive. They need human hosts: they roam and seek, using their squinted slanted vision to spot a filling station, someone willing to do what they whisper in the ear of man. 

Easy sport for demons

Finding life partners is easy sport for demons. The dead things of this world with a heart beat, are more than willing to couple with the creeping and crawling critters that curse Christ. This only appears and sounds like fantasy, if you have your eyes crazy glued shut, and you're ears stuffed with cotton, so that you cannot sense what is happening all around you? Humans have taken on the tasks demons have administered, and they are admonished constantly to keep the wicked work going, with no end in sight, until of course, the human is no longer of any use. 

For now we see 
through a glass, darkly...

My imagination isn't good enough 

Be assured of this: I am just a messenger, and certainly, be certain, that I know of what I speak. Why, it's all Biblical dear reader... my imagination isn't good enough to conjure up such things. This is not fantasy, in fact, if you do not see the spiritual realm and the beings that circulate all around you, perhaps you are a filling station for these entities?

Beware lest any man spoil you through philosophy and vain deceit, after the tradition of men, after the rudiments of the world, and not after Christ (Colossians 2:8). 

Look at the warning above and the elements there in, that can spoil you:

Beware... be aware 

Lest any man... men will try to lead you astray

Spoil you through philosophy and vain deceit... capture you with empty deceptions

After the tradition of men... rather than having faith in God

After the rudiments of the world... the world's principles and rules

And not after Christ... all of the above, is contrary to Christ

Being a captive to another human, is anti Christ

Can you see it, can you hear it

Most of the time, I am in warning mode. Some of the time, I experience overwhelming blissful joy, in knowing that God Almighty, El Shaddai, visits with us, blesses us providentially, sees us in our affliction and is concerned, and reminds us that the war has already been won. 

But I cannot help it dear one, I cannot help but repeat the beware messages, because souls are the booty of the bad, the wicked, the depraved. The demonic activities that evil humans engage in, suck the spirit and life out of the human filling stations they seek to devour. This is why it is crucial for us to be armed and dangerous to the would be killers; this is why we must know God, and acquaint ourselves with His Living Word, through the Bible

That which was from the beginning, which we have heard, which we have seen with our eyes, which we have looked upon, and our hands have handled, of the Word of life; 2 (For the life was manifested, and we have seen it, and bear witness, and shew unto you that eternal life, which was with the Father, and was manifested unto us;) That which we have seen and heard declare we unto you, that ye also may have fellowship with us: and truly our fellowship is with the Father, and with his Son Jesus Christ. And these things write we unto you, that your joy may be full. This then is the message which we have heard of him, and declare unto you, that God is light, and in him is no darkness at all (1 John 1;1-5)

Dear reader, I have highlighted the point, the essence, the glorious truth for those that want to see it, want to hear it; the Word of life:

Was manifested... came in the flesh, a man in body and soul

We have seen it... a testimony of observation

Bear witness... able to share the experience

Shew unto you... to show others

Eternal life... that Jesus is eternal life

Which was with the Father... and was with the Father

Manifested unto us... and was with us

JESUS CHRIST IS ETERNITY PERSONIFIED💖

Lets bring this point home

The world we live in gives us evidence that the thin veil between us and the spirit realm is translucent. We sense and observe the shadows moving about, but it is Gods light that allows us to see the figures that darken our world. As John stated above:

God is light, and in him is no darkness at all

If we know Jesus Christ the way the Bible announces Him, we have won the world, and conquered the darkness with His bright light shining forth from us! John mentions what his desire is in writing this epistle:

That which we have seen and heard declare we unto you, that ye also may have fellowship with us: and truly our fellowship is with the Father, and with his Son Jesus Christ. And these things write we unto you, that your joy may be full... doesn't this sound marvellous? That your joy may be full!!!

Full of joy

I have a habit of comparing and contrasting, looking for the black and the white, and never blending the two. I know that grey is a watered-down-pleasant-softness, but it is the in-between, the not-quite-there, the somewhere-out-there-temporary-place-to-visit, but never the desired destination of choice. Being full of joy requires being filled up by Gods presence, and it is the exact opposite of being a filling station for nefarious creatures that have no regret or remorse in their selfish consumption of other: these are diametrically opposed powers that be...

• I guess I want the black and the white for you too
• I suppose I want you to be filled up, not emptied out
• I admit, I want you to have the joy of fellowship with God the Father, Jesus Christ the Son, and the saints of God through the indwelling of the Holy Spirit

Thats all, thats all I want ... 

Grief and Healing Cycle

The longing after the loss

We have been going through stages since March 2019, and I will liken them to the grief and healing cycle for relationship breakup. I simplify the model here, adapting it somewhat, to our current crisis encrusted circumstances. The stages, come from a therapeutic book written by Dr. Bruce Fisher & Dr. Robert Alberti, entitled Rebuilding, 3rd edition. In this book, what I refer to as stages, they call building blocks

When I look at this model, I see three distinct phases, Trauma or Shock, Acceptance & Newness, and Moving Forward

Trauma/Shock

1. Denial-in denial, shell shocked comes to mind, where we cannot believe this is happening

2. Fear-we become afraid, of the reality we are facing

3. Adaptation-this is an attempt to use coping behaviours that have worked in the past

4. Loneliness-that feeling you get when you know what you had with someone is no more

5. Friendship-looking for our others, sometimes to replace the friends we lost

6. Guilt/Rejection-recognizing we played a role in relationship deterioration

7. Grief-the anguish we feel when we realize, we are living the never agains

8. Anger-we simply can't handle the fact that we can't handle what is happening, or change it

Acceptance & Newness

9. Letting Go-accepting that this is it, this is the way things are, as we loosen our grip on what was

10. Self-Worth-reinventing ourselves based on our new circumstances

11. Transition-leaving behind what was, and moving into a new understanding of who we are

12. Openness-a willingness to be open to change, to new relationships and experiences, without fear

Moving Forward

13. Love-learning how to love again, with a healthier view of self and others

14. Trust-giving ourselves permission to believe, that we can trust ourselves, and others, intimately

15. Relatedness-discovering how to relate with new people, in new ways, minus old bad habits

16. Singleness-you are all alone, and you like yourself; new relationships are a wonderful bonus

17. Purpose-seeing that you were created with a purpose in mind, and living into this

18. Freedom-the emotional, psychological, spiritual, physcial freedom to be YOU!

NOTE: I left out one stage, or as the authors call it, a building block. To discover which block I speak of, you will have to read the book yourself, which I highly recommend. If I were to substitute a block in replacement for the one I omit, I would label it:

Hope-hope that God will heal our broken hearts and prepare us for extraordinary relationships in new and exciting, healthy, wholesome, and godly circumstances

On a personal note

This information was helpful for me after the dissolution of my marriage. There were three life occurrences that were devastatingly traumatic: my fathers death, my son being unwell, and the ending of my marriage, in this order, meaning: the excruciating heartache while intense, was sharpest in the order of loss of father, son being unwell, husband becoming former ... I still have my son and he is of strong mind and body, praise God, but the other two men that figured prominently, are gone forever from my life, at least, from an earthly perspective! 

Face what was happening

With each life altering situation, there was no where to hide, no one to turn to, and no way to escape. I had to face what was happening without looking away, because looking away didn't change the circumstances. I had family, I had friends, but you know dear reader, when our souls are in deep anguish, no one can take that pain for us or from us. In fact a couple of times, when I did try to explain or express the anguish, I got blank stares: some people tried to talk me out of the suffering; it was more comfortable for them to move me along, rather than be next to me while I writhed in unbecoming emotions, such as anger, hurt, disappointment, and deep sorrow. 

Comfort

I am reminded of the shortest verse in the Bible, Jesus wept (John 11:35). In the recounting of the death of Lazarus, Jesus is also described as having groaned in His spirit... He knew what He would do, calling Lazarus forth from the tomb he had laid dead in for four days, and yet, He expressed sorrow when He saw others weeping. God is like that, He feels our pain, the anguish in our souls, while knowing that He can and will, relieve us from it when we turn to Him, bringing us to a newness of life. 

Trepidation is tangible 

I could say more on the side of being uplifting, but the situation we find ourselves in is so tenuous that it feels trite, to suggest a simple 1-18 step solution, to grievous difficulties. The whole earth is groaning and its people on it: we are witnessing devastating loss on a global scale, and this wreaks havoc with the minds and hearts of the many that experience loss of health, financial and social security, and loss of loved ones through relationship breakage, ideological and theological separation, and even physical death. The trepidation is tangible, and only God knows what our near future looks like.

Grieving

The grief and healing cycle has a repeat theme, as in, we will go through it many times in our lives and the order isn't linear: there are no rules to follow when we are in pain, except of course, to soldier on, knowing that God has a purpose and a plan for our suffering. We know this, because of the cross of Christ, and the example He set for us, so we can be like Him in the times when others are suffering:

Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God (2 Corinthians 1:3-4).

God wants us to be like Him... able to comfort those who are in any affliction

Days

This piece of writing has taken me an exorbitant amount of time, with writing, deleting, rewriting, waiting. When I consider what my life looks like right now, this makes sense.

I feel like I am writing to an echo

I feel like I am deleting some of my hopes and dreams

I feel like I am attempting to rewrite recent history

I feel like I am waiting for... waiting for... I'm not quite sure what I am waiting for

I guess I am wanting to hear His voice and not my own

I guess I am waiting for Him to enliven my hopes and dreams

I guess I am attempting to write my own future

I guess I am waiting to see what He will do with the mess we are in

Finish something

I have to land somewhere, to finish something. It is important, to have finality. I will end with what I need most, and it is this:

Hope-hope that God will heal our broken hearts and prepare us for extraordinary relationships in new and exciting, healthy, wholesome godly circumstances

I want more of this, for me, for you, for us, for them, for all. And while we are waiting for God to do what only He is capable of doing, we can look to the grief and healing cycle, and give ourselves the go ahead, for working through our losses thus far, trusting that God, forever and always, has a plan and a purpose for our suffering. 

Wanting & Truth

A Conversation

Wanting: Truth, thanks so much for agreeing to do this interview with me

Truth: You are welcome; it is my pleasure

Wanting: I have heard a lot of things from people about you, that I find a little sketchy

Truth: Oh yeah, like what?

Wanting: I heard that you recommend actions to keep people like me safe: ie, these shots that so many have taken; keeping my distance from anyone they tell me could make me sick; wearing a blue thing on string over my mouth and nose when I go out in public

Truth: Oh that stuff. Nothing could be further from me, in fact, I would highly recommend you go out there into the world I created and enjoy some good old fashioned air; hug some people and perhaps an adorable dwarf goat or two; bring some home made chicken noodle soup to that friend of yours that has the scratchy throat; and keep showing those pearly whites I gave you by grinning that grin of yours at all the people you come across in your neighbourhood!

Wanting: Wait a minute, you sound nothing like what I have heard from people that say they know you and are speaking on your behalf... whom am I to believe? This is very confusing, considering it is the opposite of, well just about everything I have heard for a very long time

Truth: That's just it Wanting, I am the least confusing person you will ever meet! It is impossible for you to be mixed up when you hear me, heed me, and know me for who I AM

Wanting: Truth, I am wanting, indeed, I am longing to know you better, and this is a great start. I am starting to suspect, that the ones masquerading as your spokesmen, are counterfeit, because whenever and wherever they open their mouths, there is chaos

Truth: Now you are understanding me much better, and them too. I don't really need to prove myself, now do I Wanting? I mean, I gave you the ability to test and try, to watch and learn, to wait and see, and to trust based on wisdom and knowledge. Anyone that tells you to hurry past these checkpoints because they are not necessary are simply, not telling me, they are representing another. I AM the keeper of time, and I will give you as much as you need while you figure out, Who to trust

Wanting: Fascinating, truly truly fascinating. hearing you speak like this Truth... 

Truth: How so?

Wanting: I feel calmer now, more comfortable with you. I came to the interview thinking I could catch you somehow...

Truth: In a lie?

Wanting: ... oh my, forgive me Truth, yes, in a lie... how did you know?

Jesus is the Way,
the Truth, the Life

Truth: I AM used to that accusation: nothing could be further from me. I AM the way, the truth, and I can be your life, if you choose to live by me

Wanting: That sounds so enticing, and wooing

Truth: The Truth always is Wanting, and you can live in me and I in you, for the rest of your days

Wanting: I am recalculating Truth, considering what you have said. I have to think about your answers. I am going to take some of that time you offered, to figure out Who I trust from here on out

Truth: I designed you to think, and I highly recommend it! I AM eagerly anticipating our next heart to heart... I mean interview, Wanting

Wanting: Me too. Just one more question?

Truth: Sure thing

Wanting: What do you mean by The Truth shall set you free?

Truth: Ahh, THAT! That is what you get when you acknowledge Who I AM, and lay your burdens at my feet. I can redeem you from your sins, in fact, I have done this for many people 

Wanting: I don't know what that means? I don't know what to say?

Truth: Ask me what to say, and I will help you with the words

Wanting: Can we do this another time?

Truth: Sure, I'm available in 10 minutes, is that enough time?

Wanting: Truth, I like your style. Seems you are always ready for action

Truth: Now you are getting it Wanting. Hear from you in 9 minutes ...

Pharmacist

I am hearing it on the airwaves, the undeniable truth. 

There is no where to hide, no rock to crawl under, in fact, try to run away and you will find you run right into the proverbial brick wall meant to stop you in your tracks:

And said to the mountains and rocks, Fall on us, and hide us from the face of him that sits on the throne, and from the wrath of the Lamb (Revelation 6:16)

17 year old boy

I entitled this piece of writing Pharmacist, but you will forgive me dear reader, if you are a loving and kind pharmacist that hasn't fallen into the trap of shooting people with a death dose of poison. I am writing about those that have, those that willingly load a syringe with vileness, and inject the produced to kill product, into the arms of healthy and strong children: like the 17 year old boy that I read about just this morning...

"A 17 year old with no parents ... all alone ... getting a Co-v-id shot ... he keeled over onto the hard floor at about 10 minutes post. Never regained consciousness. Ambulance called, boy taken still unconscious. No news report, as my contact watched for a few days"

Here are my questions to all the pharmacists, when they see a report like this, or when they have been the sharp shooter with the liquid killing agent in their hand, injecting the healthy that have been subjected to coercive measures that drive them to do what a clear minded person would never choose ... 

• How do you get up in the morning and repeat the day before? 
• How do you look in the mirror, knowing that you have contributed to the death toll of the healthy, via a government structured plan, to annihilate whole populations?
• And what about you, taking into your body the toxins, and recommending them to family, to friends, and vulnerable patients that trust you as a medical professional that has their best interests at heart?
• Lastly, with the heart in mind, are you okay with young men, having near fatal and fatal heart stopping attacks, and never recovering from them, with a shortened life span or immediate death?

Painful comeuppance

The truth shall set you free

This isn't right, this is horrific. I read a tweet just this past week, a woman that publicly maligned those of us that have steered clear of getting the killer shots. She admitted it, and was honest about her viciousness... the poor lamb, had a moment of painful comeuppance, when after the second shot, her son came to her bedroom with heart pain... this, my dear reader, is heart rending, and this ought to cause us the deepest pain, the greatest grief, to know that we have failed to protect our own children from the devils devices, by promoting and propagandizing on his behalf... at the expense of health and wellness and even life while here on earth. The mom got a lot of prayer and comfort from those that read and responded to her tweet: she needs it, and I join in the prayer for help for the injured, prayer for healing, and for the salvation of souls as a rescue from the trauma we are all experiencing. 

Repercussions and consequences

While this is indeed, a spiritual battle, let us remember that we have, each of us, the power of choice. With the choices we make, there are repercussions and consequences.The young are too inexperienced emotionally and psychologically, to make life altering decisions, and this is why we keep them close and make decisions that are safe and healthy FOR THEM, until they come of age and are able to weigh the pros and cons, and make those decisions themselves, with all information laid out before them. 

Pharmacist

I am staying with you, pharmacist with the needle in hand, or pharmacist with the history of shooting people in your recent past. Come clean, stop where you are in front of that brick wall. Don't try to find a way around or over it... look at what you have done, at the bidding of the evil one. Repent, sin no more, and, begin the grieving process for having played a significant role in the destruction of Gods greatest creation ever, human beings. 

If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land (2 Chronicles 7:14)

NOTE: 

It is with a heavy heart, that I dedicate this writing to the 17 year old mentioned here. You deserved much better from the adults in your life, and I pray that you are comforted in the arms of the Saviour, whether you are in this earthily bodily realm, or departed to the next

Slithery Snakes

Slithery Snakes

I have a saying, don't wrestle with a snake, you will get bitten

I am considering the wise words my son spoke yesterday, anything you say will be used against you...

Beware of slithery snakes 

We were discussing how to respond to someone that we newly discovered, was a snake in the grass: my son said cut the grass, meaning, the snake is then exposed. An exposed snake is much easier to deal with, than one that slithers and slinks silently and then without warning, wraps itself around your ankles so tightly, that pulling you down becomes an easy feat for the serpent. 

The scripture verse that comes to mind as I suss out my thoughts, is in Ecclesiastes 3:7

... a time to keep silence, and a time to speak

It is clear to me, that the time for talking can come abruptly to an end, when you know that the words you speak, fall on deaf ears and not only this, that they will be turned into a weapon, to cut and slash in order to injure. Vindictive people eventually show their true colours, when they cannot get their own way:

For nothing is secret that will not be revealed, nor anything hidden that will not be known and come to light (Luke 8:17)

Here is the perfect descriptor:

Vitriol: cruel and bitter criticism; sulphuric acid 

To pick up the theme of vindictive people, we see that cruel and bitter criticism, can act like corrosive sulphuric acid, when words are liberally sprayed at another with the intent to hurt, maim, and even kill their spirit. 

Imagine a snake that speaks sulphuric acid soaked words, spewing them with the intent to kill...

I am pretty sure the war of the worlds, the worlds being good and evil of course, started with words against The Word of Life, Jesus Christ. He spoke the physical world into existence, creating all creatures, including angels and humans, and one brilliant angel used his tongue to speak enmity with God. The battle has raged on ever since, and the acid tongued one, has deftly turned many a man against his fellow beings, wilfully causing injury with words followed closely by wicked death inducing actions. 

Where are we now in this conversation dear one?

I keep my eyes open for slithery snakes and when I spot one, I walk away, at my own pace. That little bugger can only get big if he is well fed, and I will not give him any of my words to fuel his sulphuric fire. 

Silence is golden, when the time to speak has come abruptly to an end:

... a time to keep silence, and a time to speak

Lone Ranger

Lone Ranger

And ye shall overthrow their altars, and break their pillars, and burn their groves with fire; and ye shall hew down the graven images of their gods, and destroy the names of them out of that place (Deuteronomy 12:3)

I feel like I have been throw into a role that I was designed for but certainly never wanted. Don't get me wrong, I couldn't be any other way if I tried, because I have tried, but to no avail. I am one of the called, one of the many that have a burning desire to overthrow their altars, break their pillars, burn their groves with fire, hew down the graven images of their gods and destroy the names of them out of THIS place...

• overthrow altars
• break pillars
• burn groves
• hew graven images
• destroy the names of them, out of this place

Two sides, two approaches... I heard long ago the best defence is a good offence. I can be rather offensive... smirk... in my approach. 

The directives

When I look at the list of directives above, the action steps do not intimidate me in the least. What I want to play, is a role in the destruction of what has been illegally erected that goes against Gods commandments. What has been erected, you ask?

Worshipping Satan, throughout the world, has become the new and accepted religion of choice. There are altars, pillars, groves, graven images, and people that act like the devil, and this is evidential proof, that they have turned away from the living God. 

Boring beige 

In my fair town of boring beige London, I see young women wearing apparel advertising who they worship, unabashed and rather brazen. They show no signs of shame, in fact, they proudly display their belief system with how they paint their nails, faces, and hair, along with their clothing item choices... not subtle at all in their satanic suggestiveness. Same with the men: no longer are the local Hells Angels a novelty, they have lots of ugly company. 

Ok, so you don't believe me? that worshipping Satan has become a popular religion?

Given up the Holy Ghost

Just take a look around you and ask yourself, where have all the good and godly people gone? We have witnessed pastors, the famous and the failed alike, falling into the pit at the first hint of an invitation from those that long ago professed their allegiance to the enemy of their souls. These treacherous pastors were clearly hirelings, and while they could teach the Bible on a Sunday when no one cared to challenge their faith, they face planted in front of the wicked ones, giving up the Holy Ghost to save their own skins, when they were asked to onboard with the satanic agenda.

So here I sit, laptop where it belongs, on my lap, typing to you dear one, asking you to consider joining me, in the call to:  

• overthrow altars
• break pillars
• burn groves
• hew graven images
• destroy the names of them, out of this place

How do I prepose we do this, you ask?

• Read your Bible
• Read history
• Commit to living sin free
• Challenge rhetoric
• Get to know the character of God
• Speak about your faith to an unbelieving world... they may not know Jesus Christ yet, and you could be the one that shares the best news in the world with them!

In a world were many are godless, and follow the god of this world religiously, there needs be a dissenting voice, an alternative: oddly enough, I am discovering that the Good News has yet to be shared, even in the "civilized" world. I learn daily of people that ought to know about Jesus Christ but have not had the gospel shared with them: this is tragic and dangerous, especially considering so many have taken into their bodies, toxins that may cause premature death. 

Say not ye, There are yet four months, and then cometh harvest? behold, I say unto you, Lift up your eyes, and look on the fields; for they are white already to harvest (John 4:35)

Lone Ranger

Two good guys
fighting the bad guys

I am no Lone Ranger, although I often feel this way. I am looking for most excellent and godly company, men and women that do not scare easily, and are helplessly hopelessly in love with the Saviour and cannot help themselves but speak life and freedom, accompanied by the soul saving gospel truth, to those that God has readied to hear the Good News. 

This is a call to spiritual arms: when God asks, whom shall I send, let Him hear your reply, Send me!

Also I heard the voice of the LORD, saying, Whom shall I send, and who will go for Us? Then I said, Here am I. Send me! (Isaiah 6:8)

Slick Ice of Choices

I have been considering what disturbs me most, about our current global condition. As I journaled this morning, I wrote, I don't have a lot of room in my heart for traitors: this surprised me. The roots of my irritation, of my frustration, the very seed of my upset, is treachery 

Jesus answered them, Have not I chosen you twelve, and one of you is a devil (John 6:70).

Sometimes I ruminate on Judas Iscariot, forever infamous as the one that sold the Saviour for thirty pieces of silver. He tried to give back the bloody money, saying "I have sinned by betraying innocent blood"... (Matthew 27:4), but the ones that gave him cash in the first place, would not have it... they thought they were absolving themselves of guilt, but alas, plotting murder and paying for it is a crime against God, literally. And that is the point: that if we wilfully, plot, plan and execute dastardly deeds against another, we are committing crimes against God, the Author of life. 

Slickery

Betrayal is not a new mode of operation, we are all guilty of slickery: I first heard this descriptive word from a friend when we were approaching black ice and she warned me to be careful of falling, that it was slick and slippery: thus the combination of words giving birth to the term slickery. Clever really, and it describes what we are witnessing all around us. Human beings, fast and loose, slick and slippery with their words, their declarations, and ultimately, their deadly deeds. 

Dangers of black ice

When I consider the dangers of black ice, I hear in my head, echoes of the warnings from my father in the winter time. On tarmac, thin sheet like ice, is near impossible to see before your tires come in contact with the frozen surface: the thing with black ice, is that when you hit it, when you are on it, you know it, because it can shoot your vehicle in the direction of a ditch, or on coming traffic, with little interest in the drivers input. Out of control is the feeling, and isn't that just what we are experiencing now, dear one? 

It feels like we are on near invisible black ice, careening to the cliffs edge, and the wheel has someone else's hands on it, hands we do not recognize

I do recognize 

Hands we do not recognize... the thing is, I do recognize some of the hands, because some of the hands held mine. They were my friends, they were my family, they were my neighbours, close relatives, my former husband: I knew them, they knew me, but while I tried to hold on, keep my fingers interlaced with theirs, they let go. I see them in my minds eye, slip sliding on the slick ice of choices they have made, unable to stop the careening toward the cliffs. They are beings unto death, because in this life, they chose the lesser things, the things of this world that satisfy in the moment and never again

A revelation 

They live in the void: this is a stunning statement to make, and a revelation of sorts for my saddened soul. They are my never agains, my used to be's, and my what if's: they are my no mores and they fade in my memory as though they were a lovely dream I once had but cannot completely recall. They betrayed themselves, and by doing so, they betrayed God... this is a chain reaction type of situation: 

• If people are traitors, meaning they turn on God, then OF COURSE, they do the same with people in their lives

Many have

And many have, isn't that right dear reader? Many have turned on you, while you remained faithful? Many have decided that you are dangerous, you are a hazard, you are their black ice? They see you as slickery, as risky business, all the while, you have been the solid, safe and stable ground beneath their feet and on the road ahead... they have lost their way, and there is nothing you or I can do, to pull the wheel back to steering straight again. 

They are the treacherous traitorous ones, and they accuse with their eyes, vindicating the shedding of innocent blood for a fist full of filthy lucre. It is the oldest trick in Satans book, selling souls in exchange for dead relationships and sick suicidal tendencies: 

When the morning was come, all the chief priests and elders of the people took counsel against Jesus to put him to death: And when they had bound him, they led him away, and delivered him to Pontius Pilate the governor. Then Judas, which had betrayed him, when he saw that he was condemned, repented himself, and brought again the thirty pieces of silver to the chief priests and elders, Saying, I have sinned in that I have betrayed the innocent blood. And they said, What is that to us? see thou to that. And he cast down the pieces of silver in the temple, and departed, and went and hanged himself (Matthew 27:1-5)

For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord (Romans 6:23) 

Treacherous treasonous traitors

Let us not be surprised, dear reader, by treacherous treasonous traitors. Jesus Christ, sinless, was betrayed by one of His chosen disciples, out of unmitigated avarice. Jesus does not make mistakes, He knew what Judas would do, in fact, all that happens is part of His redemptive plan, His Divine Providential care for those that heed Him, remain loyal to Him, up to and including, the point of death. He lived out what we experience today, the sting of betrayal when someone we care about, turns their back on us and walks away, despite professions of forever love. 

While it is grievous to suffer the loss of loyalty of loved ones, it would be far more grievous to the soul, to betray Jesus Christ: that is the risk we take, when we go the way of the world, as many have in droves, right before our very eyes. The only hope for the murderous masses, is to regret the role they played in being paid for shedding innocent blood: repent, and beg for forgiveness of their deadly sins, at the feet of the Only One that can save their eternal souls, Jesus Christ. 

Jesus Christ, is mighty to save

Drum Beat

Annoying some

I am thinking about ex smokers, and how annoying some of them used to be to still smokers... ok that was a weird sentence, but you get what I am saying?!

Habit that is consuming

The ex smoker knows how hard it is to give up a habit that is consuming their time, money, and ultimately, good health. When someone makes a switch from habitual dependancy on something that is hurtful to their system, to being free from the enslavement, they will do their darnedest to convince others, that they will feel better too, if they give up the thing that has them in a choke hold. 

The experience of feeling free, is something that the formerly enslaved simply must convey to everyone and anyone that will listen, and this brings me to my writing topic for today.

What is on my mind

Injured people, that have been subjected to something or someone that has caused them pain, often become the loudest voices, the well heard advocates, in our society. I will stop with the preamble, and tell you what is on my mind...

Many have taken shots in the arm that are causing toxic reactions in their bodies. If we just stayed here, with physical implications and outcomes from choosing these shots, we could be clinical and factual, but we are human beings, and not robotic in our approach to understanding ourselves and others. These shots, while wreaking havoc in the body, are also causing death for some... death of the young

Surge of exes

I propose we will see a surge of exes, those that used to be proponents of these shots, becoming the loudest voices, and widely heard advocates, for those that have fallen prey to the push to do what it seemed, everyone else was doing. These advocates, will have lost a son, or a daughter, and they will stop at nothing to ensure injustice is met with retribution. What they formerly proudly propagated, they will honestly and humbly admit, was based on mistaken perceptions and misinformed beliefs

• Not everyone smokes, or used to smoke
• Not everyone took those shots, or even considered taking them
• Not everyone will physically, in their body, suffer the results of being injected with toxins
• But everyone IS suffering, as a result of the many that have been injured and or have died

It is an impossibility for compassionate people to separate themselves from the suffering of others: when we see someone else hurt, it ought to move us to action, and at the very least, bring us to tears

Not so distant future

As I look at the landscape and what lies ahead in the not so distant future, I see devastation. I hear soul wrenching weeping, uncontrollable ear piercing shrills with spirit soaked sobbing, and gasping for air. Desolation of the mind will grip those that had a hand in the demise of their own children; those that promoted shots that ultimately, prematurely ended the lives of the precious ones God gave them as gifts. If they survive this guilt and shame drenched grieving, my prayer is that in their darkest moments of sorrow, they call out to God, telling Him they are sorry for trusting not Him, for believing not in His word, His will, His ways... My prayer is that they become the deafening voices against the perpetrators, the propagators, the true enemies of their soul...

It is always the saved, the rescued, that cannot help themselves from trying to the point of dying in some cases (martyrdom), to warn others of impending danger. Gratitude for grace and divine providence, impels the formerly lost, to convey what life is like after being set free: ask a Christian if they would ever go back to their former way of life, and you will hear them say with confidence, that the past has no pull, and being in Christ is incomparable to anything they have ever experienced before. 

God in His steadfastness and mercy, always pursues wandering and lost lambs:

What think ye? if a man have an hundred sheep, and one of them has gone astray, doth he not leave the ninety and nine, and goeth into the mountains, and seeketh that which is gone astray? And if so be that he find it, verily I say unto you, he rejoiceth more of that sheep, than of the ninety and nine which went not astray. Even so it is not the will of your Father which is in heaven, that one of these little ones should perish (Matthew 18:12-14)

Can you feel the beat?

For those that will experience sorrow that threatens life, know this about God Almighty:

Thou tellest my wanderings: put thou my tears into thy bottle: are they not in thy book? (Psalm 58:8)

Know this dear one:

God sees your sorrow, catches your tears in His bottle, and they are recorded in His book

He sees your heart, knows your pain, and wants to comfort you in it

Note: 

Perhaps you find Christians annoying, and wish they would stop beating the salvation drum? just know this, we cannot, we will not, and praise God, we hope one day you too, dance to the same drum beat 🎼