Friday, May 16, 2025
Unaware, Undisturbed, Unafraid
Thursday, May 15, 2025
Egyptian Mentality
My shame fades and swaps out tag team like, with a feeling of desolation. I cannot rescue or save anyone that does not perceive danger. I am the crazy one for not believing lies: in the eyes of the deceived, people like me are just nuts. I do not look to the potions and poisons that the medical magicians have concocted to heal or protect me: in fact, I am very well aware, of what the witches brew does to the human mind, spirit, and body ... I hear a bird happily chirping outside my window, and the sun is beaming in. It is on days like this that I too, can pretend that all is well in the world, danger is abated, and I can simply enjoy the gift of a new day. In the back of my mind the scenario plays out, and I get previews periodically of what will be. God's Biblical foreshadowing informs believers, and while I appreciate this lovely spring day, I also anticipate bad getting worse. I have never been an optimist, I am more pragmatic then romantic, but the hope I have felt for the majority, has waxed and now wanes: my belief in them is limping and lame. When there is refusal to acknowledge the spiritual realm, doom and gloom pervades and prevails, and that is precisely what thickens the air with sick anticipation of the horrors of suffering and dying that crouch at each doorstep.
The Israelites were told to paint with hyssop, the blood of a lamb on their lintels, their doorframes, so that the angel of death would not enter in and take their first borns; alas, the blood of the Lamb of God, who takes away the sins of the world, saves no one, when it is not counted on to rescue us from our own sins. Without acknowledging our blackened hearts, repenting for behaving wickedly, and then receiving remission following contrition and confession, our fate is sealed, as the saying goes.
Tuesday, May 13, 2025
Sin Dodgers Abound
Simple, isn't it, when looked at from the two sides point of view. Aren't there always two sides, dear reader? Rivalry is like a coin, heads or tails, two options and only two; except the coin toss does not determine winning or losing, it just decides who goes first. Victory goes to those that play by the rules, even when cheaters put up more points on the score board ...Thus are they convicted and condemned by their own consciences, and dread lying under that guilt in which they were not afraid to involve themselves.
Sin dodgers abound, don't they dear one? We all sin and come short of the glory of God, but some of us actually admit to this almost fatal flaw of self-indulgence. Wilful sinning is disobedience to God's commands, his rules for the good life, and when you and I register that when we sin, it is against the Father, it is an almost crushing realization. Why and how could we have said and done such horrifyingly wicked things, we ask ourselves? When a person belongs to the family of God through the saving grace of Christ and his sacrificial death on the cross for our sins, it is unbearable to hide from and pretend that we haven't committed crimes against ourselves and against the One that made us in his image. We cannot stand our accusing conscience, and confession is so necessary and urgent we feel we might bust wide open with the pressure of containment, if we do not speak our contrition to his listening ears. Mercy is the relief we receive when we repent. The unrepentant, on the other hand, that do not want to acknowledge or hear that they have done wrongly, are slain by their own sin; their sin is fatal, and they do not, will not, refuse to, own it; self and other deception via denial gives them a sense of temporary reprieve but alas, justice will be served. The wicked ruin their own reputations, making fools of themselves before an observing Almighty God, and amongst his people.
I still see in my mind's eye, Justin Trudeau's face when he incited Canadians to hate their fellow citizens if they did not comply with mandates. I am curious about Justin and his whereabouts? Justin earned himself quite a nasty reputation world wide. When he turned to shake the hand or have a quiet word with a "world leader" sitting or standing near-by, they would turn away from him, disregarding him and ignoring him as though he did not exist. One by one, the puppets in the pulpits, the preachers of iniquity, the prime ministers of sedition against the Authority, have stepped down and away from their roles, to be replaced by equally empty and wicked minded mouth pieces. They too will have their say and day in the darkness that surrounds them; but we that see, know them for who they are and to whom they belong, and nothing they say or do will convince us that they are innocent of heinous maiming and killing crimes. His blood be upon us and upon our children; let us bear the blame for ever ... Justin and his cohorts do what the devil their daddy bids them, and the blood flows in rivers to fill the seas, and will continue to gush until God says, Enough.
Every person that attempted to command their fellow citizens to go against the conscience God placed in each of us when he created us, is responsible for grievous sin committed - it is unconscionable to lead others astray, especially when evil is leading a person this way and that by the nose. In other words: If you thought you were right believing in the fraud of covid, and you shamed and blamed resistors for choosing to maintain their autonomy by trusting in the living God for their health and well-being rather than stupid, demeaning, and demoralizing masks and lethal injections as "protection" against a make-believe patented laboratory invented monstrosity designed to injure and kill, then you were dead wrong, and I do not use the word dead lightly.
If you are reading this and you fell for the fraud, then please know that I have wept for you, and prayed for you to repent, and to confess your sin of rebellion to the only One that can save you from yourself. If you are still here with me, I also pray that you ask for forgiveness for damaging relationships in your rebellion: you demanded compliance from people that answer only to God, and for this, you have caused great pain and suffering to those that loved you and plead for your soul with sorrow and weeping before God the Father.
If you are a sin dodger, meaning you do not hold yourself accountable for sinning against God, but rather, excuse what you do, favouring the feigning or justifying of your wicked ways, then you have some reckoning of your accounts to do while you still have breath ... if you don't do it now, dear reader, God will do it for you when you stand before him on the day you pass from this life into the next. Your soul is at stake; perhaps now is a good time to stop bobbing and weaving to dodge t punches in the nose coming your way. Maybe you can stand still, see your sin, suffer for all that self-indulgence that has ruined your life, and see Jesus on the cross, loving you past the crimes you committed at his expense, and embracing the salvation he mercifully offered through his life, death and resurrection.
Thursday, May 8, 2025
Dead Stop Statements
They did not take away property, but they were indifferent to it. They did no call what they had their own, in a way of pride and vainglory, boasting of it, or trusting in it. They did not call it their own, because they had in affection, forsaken all for Christ, and were continually expecting to be stripped of all for their adherence to him. They did not say that aught was their own, for we can call nothing our own but sin. What we have in the world is more God's than our own, we have it from him, must use it for him, and are accountable for it to him (Matthew Henry, Acts to Revelation, page 42).
My mom told a story recently of a relative that cried when she was out in the open market in their home town. When the relative was asked why she was crying, she replied, I want it all. All she saw was all she wanted. Do you find this strange, or can you relate? Mine, all mine, is a sickness that needs curing; emptiness that needs filling cannot be fixed with things, or experiences, or people. Void is ravenous, and impossible to satiate.
When I read about the first Christ followers, I long for their zeal and fellowship. They were one in the spirit, they were one in the Lord, and while they walked the earth, they were on a heavenly mission; knowing God personally made everything else fade into insignificance. Striving, establishing, accumulating, making a name and reputation as a very important person (VIP), being some kind of big deal and proving worth, just didn't matter to these guys and gals that were filled with God's grace.
Matthew Henry humbles me in his humility. Let us look again, at what he observed and recounted regarding the earliest of believers:
They did not take away property, but they were indifferent to it. Have you heard the expression, sharing is caring? It is somewhat easy to sell and give away what you and I have, if we know that what we have, was freely given to us first, and that it all comes from God. I recently prayed to not be attached to things, to not have affection for stuff that I like: imagine Job with me, dear reader ... many a person has lived through Job like experiences, and it is admirable when they refuse to forsake God, and cling to him all the more, in their times of trouble and tribulation. The disciples were indifferent to property, seeing it as disposable and the proceeds distributable to those in need. They showed their caring when they were sharing as family members with Christ as their head.
● Do you say these words when severely challenged, Your will, not mine Lord?
They did not call what they had their own, in a way of pride and vainglory, boasting of it, or trusting in it. Man alive, the earliest of believers saw past themselves didn't they? Ownership, pride, vainglory, boasting, trusting in what they had, were the furthest things from them! I scrunch my face and clench my teeth while wrinkling my nose at the thought of bragging ... I have been prideful in the past, but about eight years ago, I got flattened out, and in my minds eye, I see myself splattered and stuck to the floor in my basement office. I was made inept, incapable, helpless, and almost hopeless, stripped bare of any delusion that I could fix what was broken. God was my spatula, and scraped me up and off that floor, and I know it was his voice instructing me every step of the way, that revived me, giving me the strength to take tiny steps toward restoration. I learned poignantly then, what I know unquestionably now: but for God go I, and I thank him for all that I have every single day.
● If you had ten minutes to take whatever you wanted from your home before it got pulverized, what would you retrieve?
● What do you hold so dear that parting with it would hurt your heart?
They did not call it their own, because they had in affection, forsaken all for Christ, and were continually expecting to be stripped of all for their adherence to him. Can you relate to this statement, dear reader? My son is 28 years old today, and I recall thanking God for him and saying, He is not mine, God, he is yours. Thank-You for giving him to me to raise! I have given my son to God over and over again throughout the years, knowing he belongs to his Creator, just as you and I do. We cannot love our children more than God does, but we sure can love them enough to trust that God the Father has their best in mind, and when we pray for our children, wanting them to be like their Saviour, we can know and believe that God hears our prayers; we can trust too, that putting our children figuratively into the hands of the Almighty, is the best place for them. I realize that is not what Matthew Henry is referencing here, but I do think it necessary to remind parents that their children are not possessions; children are precious gifts from God, and it is our duty to raise them up according to God's commandments.
My very best examples of losing our affection for the world and what we can accomplish and accumulate while in it, is forsaking all for Christ when we simply cannot, will not, refuse to, stop speaking about him, no matter the threats or consequences. My marriage ended because I spoke the words I love Jesus more than anyone and anything; my businesses took a massive hit when I refused to collude with the covid criminality; I was ejected from a board of directors for publicly speaking out against the second greatest hoax committed in human history, again referring to covid (the first greatest hoax occurred in the garden of Eden, when a slithery snake convinced Eve to take and eat forbidden fruit, and man alive, we the people have followed in our parental footsteps ever since, haven't we?); my Bible study attendees slowly one-by-one, backed out from gathering together, preferring the safety of hiding behind screens to study God's Word, rather than boldly continuing to meet; lastly, the church we attended as a family made it clear that they belonged to the devil, when they shut the church, pretending to continue worshipping Jesus on Sundays via the internet, and eventually opened up as an injection location for the administering of covid shots. Imagine that, it wasn't safe to stand side-by-side to hear scripture read or sing in unison while worshipping God, but it was safe for would-be-sick people to line up, masked, and readied to be injected with poison. Sounds like a synagogue of Satan event to me.
Dear reader, I expect to be stripped of all for my adherence to Christ, because it is promised in The Bible that this very thing will happen, as it did to the first followers, and to every generation that came after them. God's people would rather die than bow to the god of this world, or his minions for that matter.
● Do you, dear reader, cling to your King, forsaking all, come what may?
They did not say that aught was their own, for we can call nothing our own but sin. This is the dead stop statement that had me weeping in contrition. My sin is my own, and so is yours. What a concept. I own all I have said and done, since I chose every word, every deed. Oh yikes, this brings to mind of a fresh, some of my lip curling ugly choices that make me want to hide in shame! Ha, thank God for our conscience, repentance, confession, and forgiveness ... I am washed in the blood of Christ, and redeemed from having been wicked and wayward. I am still here to live another day to glorify God, and for this, I am grateful.
What we have in the world is more God's than our own, we have it from him, must use it for him, and are accountable for it to him. This last sentence slows my thinking and typing down. Do you agree with Matthew Henry? He is speaking Biblical truth, and yet, we must decide if what we are reading makes sense rationally. I start this discussion on this last point with my son, delivered this day 28 years ago. I did not knit him in my womb, I am incapable of this feat, but I did feed, clothe, and shelter him. Am I responsible for all he says and does? Is it me, or is it him? I do not pump his heart with oxygen rich blood, or help him fall asleep and then rise in the morning. I cannot control his thoughts or what he does ... he is an entity unto himself, making decisions all the live long day. He is mine and yet he does not belong to me.
Here is what The Bible says in the book of James 1:17:
Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and cometh down from the Father of lights, with whom is no variableness, neither shadow of turning.
- What you and I have in the world is more God's then our own
- What you and I have, we have from the Father of lights
- Every good gift and perfect gift is from above
- We must use these gifts for God's glory
- We must be accountable to him
- He never varies and there is no dark shadow he can cast
Wednesday, May 7, 2025
Where's Your Mask
● Where is your mask?
● Did you get your covid shots?
YOUR
Your implies ownership, as in, I assume you have a mask you call all your own and; I presume it is appropriate and necessary to ask you pointedly, If you have done what everyone ought to do, by getting your injections, as though there is a vial filled with poison meant just for me, with my name on it. Marketing 101: make the people think something is theirs, has been created for them for their own good, and voila, the mesmerized will not suspect a thing, and will become the unpaid propagators of said poison. The mind, dear reader, is poisoned first, with thinking being turned against self, and then turned against others. The idea is, I have it right, and I will force those others to see things my way, or by God, they will be humiliated until they comply.
We now switch gears, dear one.
With great power gave the apostles witness of the resurrection of the Lord Jesus.
GRIN
With vigour, courage, spirit, we read that the apostles spoke of the Saviour fearlessly, with unstoppable drive and desire. They knew their mission well, which was to speak the gospel of Jesus Christ (go to The Bible, dear reader, ask God to help you see what is in plain view!), to those that had crucified him, so that they might feel convicted, contrite, and turn to him as Saviour from their sins, and secure eternity with him in heaven. Compare this to the mandates of men, imposed viciously and violently upon unsuspecting and vulnerable citizens that haven't God's mind: if they did, fewer people would have taken into their bodies the potions concocted to maim and kill, tainted with the blood of sacrificed babies. I say this to you, in the hope that if you indeed got the covid injections, that you repent, see the error of all the decisions that led up to those days when you walked willingly away from God's commandments, and toward a demonic demand: God hears our thoughts, and when we regret and confess our sins to him, and ask for his forgiveness through Christ, it is never in vain: he is merciful and wants none to be lost! He hears and sees you, dear reader, and he owns all souls. The devil wants to own us; alas, he has no right to you and I, unless of course, we walk on the wild wicked side, and give ourselves over to evil.
When we read about the apostles being arrested for healing and for speaking of Jesus as the resurrected King after being crucified by murderous malignant minded men, we witness the rage of humans that hate Jesus, that hate God so much they want to eradicate him, and us, the believers. The two camps are evident, and the poison pushers continue to unwittingly presume to impose, at their own peril and risk. I have a friend I simply adore. She recently took her young son to a walk-in clinic because the little guy wasn't feeling well. A pregnant nurse came at my friend with rabid audacity, bold and bombastic directives, and a death culture spirit, insisting that my friend should have her son's inoculations updated, and that he ought to have a "booster". I praise God for my friend's vigour, courage, and spirit: she replied emphatically: I know what's in those things, no! There was more, because the nurse was mistakenly persistent, but alas, I am sad for her and the babe she carries in her womb. If she is so adamant that strangers take the "medicine", it is not a stretch to believe she has taken all that has been on offer to her, believing she was protecting herself and her baby, and not trusting in God as her Creator and giver of life, and life abundant.
People think covid is finished, but it is not, dear one. Nurses and doctors have been inDOCtrinated to continue giving injections, under the guise of public safety. These workers are as far from God as one can get, and this is alarming, because if they should die suddenly without acknowledging how far they have travelled from their Sovereign, they will face judgment for all of their sins, including having murdered many via lethal injections administered mindlessly. The prayer spoken by our Lord, Forgive them Father, for they know not what they do, comes to mind. We have all sinned; it is when we think and believe evil is good and good is evil, that we endanger our well-being, and hang our souls out over a cliff, readied as carrion for the feasting of vultures.
Lastly, I have to include this bit of information in this piece of writing. Injections are being given, two at a time, to our children in grades seven and eight, to "prepare" them for attendance at high school. It sickens me to no end that I pay school taxes as a home owner, that go toward public health nurses poisoning our kids. The thought makes my heart race; the feeling of helpless hopelessness for these unprotected and trusting little souls, makes me weak with sorrow. This is child sacrifice, dear reader, because people are dying daily from injections, and we will witness more suffering and death as each day passes. This might be the worst summer we have ever lived to see.
I close with 1. a thought, 2. with scripture and; 3. with commentary from Matthew Henry:
1. My former friend, the one that thought she had a right to imply I was doing something wrong by not wearing a mask, did a wicked thing that day. She spoke to me as one that had authority, and she was dead set against me having a mind of my own, and a spirit that answers to the God that made us both.
2. But when they had commanded them to go aside out of the council, they conferred among themselves, saying, What shall we do to these men? for that indeed a notable miracle hath been done by them is manifest to all them that dwell in Jerusalem; and we cannot deny it. But that it spread no further among the people, let us strictly threaten them, that they speak henceforth to no man in this name. And they called them, and commanded them not to speak at all nor teach in the name of Jesus. But Peter and John answered and said unto them, Whether it be right in the sight of God to hearken unto you more than unto God, judge ye. For we cannot but speak the things which we have seen and heard. So when they had further threatened them, they let them go, finding nothing how they might punish them, because the people: for all men glorified God for that which was done. For the man was above forty years old, on whom this miracle of healing was showed (Acts 4:15-22)
3. It is a rule in the common law of England that if any statute be made contrary to the law of God it is null and void. Nothing can be more absurd than to hearken unto weak and fallible men, that are fellow-creatures and fellow-subjects, more than unto a God that is infinitely wise and holy, our Creator and sovereign Lord, and the Judge to whom we are all accountable. The case is so plain, so uncontroverted and self-evident, that we will venture to leave it to yourselves to judge of it, though you are biased and prejudiced. Can you think it right in the sight of God to break a divine command in obedience to a human injunction? That is right indeed which is right in the sight of God, for his judgment, we are sure, is according to truth, and therefore by that we ought to govern ourselves (Matthew Henry's Commentary Acts to Revelation, Volume 6, pages 37-38).
PS: If you wore a mask whilst being well aware that covid was a grand scheme and lie to manipulate and dupe the populace, then you must ask God for forgiveness. You contributed to the overall mental illness that was suffered world wide, when you were cowardly and did not stand strong and tall against demonic influence and demands. God would have given you strength, but you did not go to him for it. You can go to him now, and reconcile your books; pray that he is with you when next you need courage.
Sunday, May 4, 2025
By What Power?
If you were an apostle, and you had just spent time eating, drinking, and absorbing the glory via association with the risen Lord, you would answer to him, the Saviour. Who, I ask you, can resist God Almighty in the flesh, except those that hate him obsessively and maliciously?
And it came to pass on the morrow, that their rulers, and elders, and scribes, and Annnas the high priest, and Caiaphas, and John, and Alexander, and as many as were of the kindred of the high priest, were gathered together at Jerusalem. And when they had set them in the midst, they asked, By what power, or by what name, have ye done this? Acts 4:5-7
Peter and John through the power and name of Jesus Christ, helped a man to his feet that had been lame since birth. Imagine that, the rulers, elders, scribes, high priests (Annas and Caiaphas swapped out and shared the role every other year), John, the son of Annas (it is supposed), and a prominent man named Alexander, along with kindred, meaning family members of the high priest, didn't like what they saw. They knew of Jesus and the miracles he had performed, proving his deity, and they maliciously plotted his murder; they also knew at this point, that Jesus gave the same power and authority via the Holy Ghost, to heal, by faith in him and in his name, to his apostles and disciples. If it were your relative that had to beg alms to eat daily due to legs that would not hold their weight, would you be enraged if God deemed it time to heal him or her, by his Almighty power? Clearly, the crooked crew that hated miracles didn't consider how wonderful it must have been for this previously lame man, to be able to now walk and even leap, for joy: what a crying shame they did not celebrate with him.
By what authority?
You can go to scripture to read the entire story; our time together will be spent otherwise. I aim at godless government, that have the gall to intervene and impose, when wholesome healing is offered via good for the lungs air, excellent for eyesight sunlight, great for the guts fruits, vegetables, herbs, spices, and meaty eats from the flesh of animals. By what authority, do they, dare to tell us what we can and cannot do? By what authority, do they, tamper with the air we breathe, the sun we soak up, the food we consume, and the herbs and spices that heal what is hurt?
At this point it is almost laughable for me to dive into yet another tirade regarding equivalency; in other words, comparing and contrasting what we see today, with what we see represented governmentally in the scene described above from the book of Acts. Just for fun, let us go another round.
We can compare:
● scribes to modern day law makers, now law breakers, since they have corrupted justice willfully: we see this with many a judge obstructing and obviating established law to accommodate wicked planners
● rulers and elders to governors that enforce the laws; we call these men and woman statesmen, premiers, and city councillors
● high priests, known to us as presidents and prime ministers, as the authority over all the underlings, that command the hatchet wielding henchmen
● brethren as followers in their fathers bloody footsteps; children that haven't fallen far from their parental rotten tree, and;
● guys like Alexander that dig the power they garner by being hang-abouts with the powers that be - this fellow is similar to our broadcasters or social media influencers, that ride the coat tails of the truly wicked, gaining notoriety by propagating all that is vile and maladjusted
Judges, government officials, Prime Minsters and Presidents, along with clergy that belong to the synagogue of Satan, have told us we can change our gender to whatever flavour of the month suits us; we can kill our babies or ourselves with their assistance; we can expedite the dying process for relatives, and patients under the care of "medical professionals"; oh, and we must agree to lethal injections according to their iron fisted rule, along with eating less meat, owning nothing, and taking up as little space as possible. I know the list is longer than this: you can add to it liberally, dear reader, I won't stop you.
By what power, what authority, in whose name? I ask you, do men and women do what ought not be done in the form of imposition of their will, to the point of attempting to remove free will, from fellow citizens?
One thing is certain. God gives power, he gives authority, and the name of Jesus will cause every knee to bow, and every tongue to confess him as Lord, but the day is yet to come, and we must wait, working out our own salvation with fear and trembling.
Saturday, May 3, 2025
Silencing The Voice
Can you hear me? I AM The Voice
I shout, I speak, I whisper. Can you, hear me?
Once upon a time, children played outside, never wanting the sun to go down, never wanting the day to end. You will come in when the street lights come on, some parents demanded. Sometimes, a parent would call out a name, or two, or even three, depending on how many their offspring: Come home, Julie, Janice, Bronco, Jill, John, Paul, Lori, Antonella, Linda, Patricia ... time to come home. Some of the kids got to stay out past the lighting of the street lamps; some of us knew that if we did not return home, once our parent called out the front door, their would be hell to pay for our disobedience. Each child knew his or her own mothers/fathers voice. We did not answer to other parental voices, we answered to the parents that we belonged to: we were children, of mothers and fathers, each going our separate ways, into our separate homes.
Can you, dear reader, hear your Father's voice? There are two fathers, and each child hears the one, or the other, when they are called. We cannot help but heed our Father, or our father, as it were. We belong to One, or the other. When we silence one voice, the other gets louder. In once upon a time, my mother's verbal insistence, my father's undeniable command, were clear, crisp, and irresistible. To ignore them was folly, and foolishness; they knew what children are want to know in their naïveté and innocence, namely, that they can get lost, or stolen away, when the light dims and darkness invades.
I wax nostalgic, longing for the sweetness of days gone-by, when not knowing what lurks and leers in the shadows gave a false sense of security. Learning of the inner workings of those that answer to their diabolical father, is frightfully and gut wrenchingly repulsive. It is difficult to stomach the hard-wiring of the wicked, that renders them capable of grotesque acts of cruelty ... they hear a voice, and do the bidding of their daddy the devil, and it does not phase them at all. Conversely, those that hear and heed The Father, can also hear the bleating and baahhhing of his sheep, and my God in heaven, I cannot tell you how much I appreciate the lambs of the flock that fill my life with sweet peace that surpasses all understanding!
Thursday, May 1, 2025
The Purge
Some of the things I have heard would curl many an ear closed, in an attempt to block out the information. People have suffered severe abuse, and just when I think I cannot be shocked, I hear a real life horror story. Dare I point a finger in the face of parents, and suggest that they are the culprits the majority of the time? Dare I, dear reader, tell you that what you say and do, impacts your little ones not only in their formative years, but long into their adult lives, in sometimes torturous, inescapable ways? I do dare to accuse and blame parents, since so many are monstrously manipulative and willfully wicked around their offspring, thinking nothing of exposing their children to vulgar and violent words and behaviours.
It is the person that goes to another in dire need to be heard, that I have compassion for. Where do we go when what is happening in our lives, is so heinous that we cannot stand our own skin? The hope is that there is someone we can trust that will care for us enough to speak the love of God to our mind, our heart, our soul.
God knows. God knows is what I want to make very clear, here and now. He knows what people say and then do to one another. He knows how difficult it is for children to feel love, and hate at almost the very same time, for the parents that have mistreated them. God's commandments are not honoured, not obeyed, not even considered in families, and when he is denied as the Sovereign in a household, mayhem in the form of reprobate thoughts and actions, is welcomed in.
Sin is the enemy of the soul, and if you look very closely, you will see that souls are cut and bruised, limping along, bleeding to death for want of a safe place to go for healing and rest, from the torment of memories that plague their being. If you are lost and lonely, and haven't a person to confide in, you are in the perfect position to purge, with God as your confidante. Go to Jesus. Go to the Word of life. Go to God Almighty for the salve that saves. Confess your sins to the Redeemer, ask for forgiveness, and sin no more.
Read scripture and learn God's plan, and extricate yourself from the entanglements of wickedness. God knows what you need, and will provide what you require to get well, but you must first, start with him, as your go to cure all.