Evidence of Integrity

The best evidence of integrity is a freedom from the present prevailing corruptions of the times and places that we live in, to swim against the stream when it is strong. Those God will own for this faithful witnesses that are bold in bearing their testimony to the present truth, 2 Pet. 1:12 Wherefore I will not be negligent to put you always in remembrance of these things, though ye know them, and be established in the present truth.This is thank-worthy, not to bow to Baal when everybody bows. Sober singularity is commonly the badge of true sincerity, Matthew Henry, Acts to Revelation, Volume 6, page 359. 

Elijah had a complaint. He was a lonely kind of fellow, and couldn't find faithful brethren. God let him know that he always has a remnant, no matter how bleak the circumstances appear, and no matter what age we currently live in. The apostle Peter reminded the faithful of this awe inspiring truth:

For we have not followed cunningly devised fables, when we made known unto you the power and coming of our Lord Jesus Christ, but were eyewitnesses of his majesty. For he received from God the Father honour and glory, when there came such a voice to him from the excellent glory, This is my beloved Son, in whom i am well pleased. And this voice which came from heaven we heard, when we were with him in the holy mount. We have also a more sure word of prophecy; whereunto ye do well that ye take heed, as unto a light that shineth in a dark place, until the day dawn, and the day star arise in your hearts: Knowing this first, that no prophecy of the scripture is of any private interpretation. For the prophecy came not in old time by the will of man: but holy men of God spake as they were moved by the Holy Ghost (2 Peter 1:16-21)

I state the obvious when I say, Baal/devil worship isn't new. Satan worshippers are bold in their Hail Satan exclamations. One might think that Christ worshippers would be just as bold, with evident dedication to the King; alas, some pay hollow lip service to the idea of Christianity, all the while, there resides a well of darkness in their hearts: 

But there were false prophets also among the people, even as there shall be false teachers among you, who privily shall bring in damnable heresies, even denying the Lord that bought them, and bring upon themselves swift destruction. And many shall follow there pernicious ways; by reason of whom the way of truth shall be evil spoken of. And through covetousness shall they with feigned words make merchandise of you: whose judgment now of a long time lingereth not, and their damnation slumbereth not (2 Peter 2:1-3)

My questions to you, Christian: 

Have you left a church, or two, yet? 

Have you sat unnerved in a congregation, recognizing that a false preacher, a hireling, presides there, and you simply cannot abide what you are hearing and witnessing? Did you decide you must leave immediately, and never return? 

Have you sat solo, with your heart thumping loudly in your chest, and felt the urge to jump up out of your seat to shout, Liar, LIAR, when you heard heresies pour forth from the mouth of a wicked imposter? 

Have you witnessed the Truth, scripture, being mutilated and twisted, whilst an unsuspecting mass of humanity listens to the bastardizations, without ever suspecting the culprit, because the crowd is biblically illiterate, or overly tolerant and indulgent, of humans watering down sound doctrine, because they are spiritually disinclined to commit their very souls and existence to Christ?

Have you recognized and observed that the flock is seen simply as merchandise from the pulpit puppet? Have you noticed the guy that yacks and yacks to a captive audience, flapping his lips and quickly moving his tongue, never pays humble homage to the One that bought him? 

And what of the Sunday school secularized teachers, dear one? Have you listened in and seen too, what they are doing to robotize our little ones? 

I know of a church that has a "sensory" room; this room is a place to segregate individuals. It is appalling to think of children being sent there, as though they are unwelcome, or as though they are animals that must be taken out of the general population, caged and contained for a time, so as not to disturb the good vibes of other participants, or challenge the skill set of "educators" that have an authoritarian mindset and approach to teaching children. How shameful, Churches have been secularized. Turning children into obedient little zombies is the goal for the self-important and self-appointed disciplinarians, called Sunday school teachers, in this particular church. 

Matthew 19:14

But Jesus said, Suffer little children, and forbid them not, to come unto me: for of such is the kingdom of heaven

Jesus knows the heart of each and every Sunday school teacher. Some Sunday school teachers adore the Lord, and it shows in how they speak to little children. Only a truly wicked person, could be unkind to a small child, and these false teachers, must never be in charge of a group of tender, sweet, and precious to the Lord souls: I say this, and yet, volunteers are deemed qualified without vetting, and being held to godly standards; these pretenders end up doing untold spiritual damage each time they take, and tightly grip, the reigns of leadership. 

Is there evidence of integrity in you, dear reader? Are you unwilling to forsake the Lord, and thereby willing to say No, to the fakes and frauds that call themselves preachers, teachers, and church leaders, that do not love the Lord with all their heart, soul and mind? 

It can feel very lonely at first, to decide to leave an apostate church. You may want to convince others that they are in danger, or that you have seen antichrist like inclinations in the preacher and his associates, or that you have been misguided and mistreated too, by those that have taken on teaching roles. When you leave, know that you are not alone, you are not the first to go for the very same reasons, and that there truly is a remnant of faithful followers of Christ the Lord, that love him so much, they couldn't bear to be a part of a body, that does not honour and glorify him as Saviour, Redeemer, and Lord of lords. 

I end with a quote from Matthew Henry; you may recognize it from above:

Sober singularity is commonly the badge of true sincerity,

Let this sink in, dear one. 

A Letter to Erica

Oh Erika, when will you stop? I realize, you silly little nitz, that this is your time, this is your reason to get up and get gussied each day, but are you at all embarrassed and self-conscious yet? You are very popular and the guest on many a talk show, so I can completely understand that you have to take advantage of your current popularity, but man alive, isn't there a friend in your life that has suggested you stop trying so hard to prove you are sad, about your pretend husband, having been pretend assassinated? 

Acting is not your forte Erika, it is not your calling. How do you feel at the end of each day, when you swipe away the paint on your face? Do you sleep well at night, knowing that you fooled very few, in fact fewer then you did in the beginning, because you know, you protest too much; and man alive, just hearing you speak without making any logical sense, has people wondering, Are there thoughts in that heavy haired head?

Someone has to pull the plug on the freak show that has become your life. Everyone that interviews you and pretends to be on your side, is looking pretty bad too. The lights, the cameras, the action, all futile and vapid - you all aren't fooling the discerning. 

You do know Erica, that people think you are a liar, and this does not bode well for you. The set-up for the assassination looked suspicious, and there are far too many people that just didn't buy the nonsense, and now, you are left holding the bag, trying your inept best, to prove you are grieving, that Charlie the actor was your husband, that he is buried somewhere and oh ya, blah blah blah. 

Erika, people will start to distance themselves from you, because all of the other liars do not want to associate with a social pariah. You have made yourself obnoxiously obvious, with all of your very bad pretending; while you may have served a purpose in the beginning, you are quickly becoming the left overs from a bad take-out. The botched pretend assassination, is mocked mercilessly at this point, and you are the last painted clown, still trying to slog and sell the fabrication, ad nauseam. When will you see that you are making an utter fool of yourself? And for what, pray tell? What, are you getting out of this deal Erika? What is your recompense for publicly establishing yourself as a fraudster?

I am really hoping for you, that you back away from all of this. I am hoping you just cannot stomach all of the treacherous lies and misrepresentations; all the faking and desperately trying so hard to prove something that never happened. Charlie, if that was his name, is somewhere, but alas, he wasn't taken out by a bullet, not a chance. 

Anyhow, I just thought I would let you know how you are being perceived, and how there is a way out of this if you are willing. Just stop, Erika, stop talking, stop pretending to cry, stop exaggerating, stop going on shows and trying to get attention. It is shameful behaviour, and you are making yourself look really bad. 

And to all you talk-show desperado's that host people like Erika, you sound like fools each time you defend an already defeated narrative. You need to cut that out, and come clean, maybe earn a real and honest living by the sweat of your tattooed on brows. 

P.S: I sure do hope the majority of people that were duped by the feigned assassination of actor Charlie Kirk, see through the nonsense at this point. It is a statement about our society, that truth tellers are insulted for calling out the fraud they see; all the duped ones in my social media circles, and beyond, tried shamelessly to convince me that I was wrong, but alas, I was not, and am not, wrong; I did not, nor shall I, concede. 

Funny how people can turn on other people, despite the trust they had in them prior to being lured and deluded. When all is said and done, it is those that have integrity, that will stand firm, no matter the consequences. 

The Product of Many Graces

Two things are required as conditions of salvation - (a.) Confessing the Lord Jesus - openly professing relation to him and dependence on him, as our prince and Saviour, owning Christianity in the face of all the allurements and affrightments of this world, standing by him in all weathers. Our Lord Jesus lays a great stress upon this confessing of him before men; see Matt. 10:32, 33 Whosoever therefore shall confess me before men, him will I confess also before my father which is in heaven. But whosoever shall deny me before men, him will I also deny before my Father which is in heaven. It is the product of many graces, evinces a great deal of self-denial, love to Christ, contempt of the world, a mighty courage and resolution. It was a very great thing especially, when the profession of Christ or Christianity hazarded estate, honour, preferment, liberty, life, and all that is dear in this world, which was the case in the primitive times. (b.) Believing in the heart that God raised him from the dead. The profession of faith with the mouth, if there be not the power of it with the heart, is but a mockery; the root of it must be laid in an unfeigned assent to the revelation of the gospel concerning Christ, especially concerning his resurrection, which is the fundamental article of the Christian faith, for thereby he was declared to be the Son of God with power, and full evidence was given that God accepted his satisfaction (Matthew Henry, Acts to Revelation, Volume 6, page 355). 

The paragraph above is an encapsulation, regarding the conditions of salvation, with two stand-out tenets being: 

(a) Confessing the Lord Jesus

(b) Believing in the heart that God raised him from the dead

I heard R. C. Sproul speak of secret agent Christians. Are you, dear reader, a closet, or secret agent, Christian? Perhaps you believe that God raised Jesus from the dead, and what you have left to do to complete this salvation agreement, is to confess the Lord Jesus, as: 

1. Your Prince

2. Your Saviour

Next, there is the in-the-world you, that confesses and professes Christ, via: 

1. Self-denial

2. Love of Christ

3. Contempt of the world

4. With evidence of mighty courage and resolution

How does this show up in this life, you ask?

When faced with allurements, otherwise known as temptations, or when facing affrightments, otherwise known as threatenings from a Christ hating populace, you stand by Christ in all weathers; in all storms, not just when the sun is shining and jeopardy is not on the horizon. You remain devoted and true in your heart, and willing to profess him as your LORD, even at the risk of loss of home, finances and income, social cachet or status at work, or in your neighbourhood; hazarding liberty and life, meaning freedom of movement because professing Christ can land you in jail and or, curtail your social circle circulation and; professing him as your Prince, your Saviour, can threaten your very existence - martyrdom is the ultimate willingness to publicly profess Christ at all costs. 

Dear reader, it is your heart that matters most in all salvation concerns. Professing Christ with the mouth, but denying him when circumstances indicate you will lose far more than you are willing to relinquish, suggests you are a closet or secret agent Christian, which makes me wonder, Are you truly a Christian? Don't get irritated with me, for asking this question. It is Christ that makes plain, what will happen to those that will not speak his name, when push comes to shove in a wretched world:

Matthew. 10:32, 33 Whosoever therefore shall confess me before men, him will I confess also before my father which is in heaven. But whosoever shall deny me before men, him will I also deny before my Father which is in heaven.

The wonder and mystery of faith, as evinced by the many graces that God bestows, is the courage and commitment to confess Christ, in circumstances where speaking his name, is a dangerous endeavour: what I mean is, God equips, God endows, God empowers us to speak without fear, despite the real threat of subtle and sometimes hostile retribution, from antichrist characters that just so happen, to be members of our family, colleagues at work, clients we serve, sales clerks and librarians, or bank staff that cannot stand the mention of Jesus' name. Dear reader, it is the power and might of God that raised Jesus from the dead, and it is the very same power that surges in us, when Christ is our King!

The thought of denying Christ as Saviour of my soul, makes me shudder in horror. True believers are terrified when they consider the possibility of becoming cowardly before men by not professing Jesus as our Prince. It behooves each and every believer to ask themselves the question: Would I do what Judas did? Would I take coins in exchange for the selling out of the Messiah? 

If your work, or your relationships, hold more value for you than your relationship with Jesus, then perhaps you would indeed, deny God incarnate, for creature comforts that only last an earthly lifetime. God forbid you make this unwise move away from salvation. 

Are you, dear one, depending on the Lord, to save your soul? If so, you must in your heart, see him as Saviour and with your mouth, profess him as Prince, come what may. 

Jesus isn't subtle. Jesus does not mince words. Jesus tells us our fealty must be to him, even if it means giving up the people, places and things, that we enjoy and do not want to do without. The losses can be great, and you may anticipate much grieving ahead for your professing Christ shamelessly and publicly, and this, I tell you, will be worth an eternity in heaven, with God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Ghost:

If any man come to me, and hate not his father, and mother, and wife, and children, and brethren, and sisters, yea, and his own life also, he cannot be my disciple (Luke 14:26)

Everybody's Welcome, Except Jesus

For I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ: for it is the power of God unto salvation to every one that believeth; to the Jew first, and also to the Greek (Romans 1:16)

I harken back to October, and then travel forward in time, to our now:

Sweet October, blessed by the Lord, accursed by man. Fall is a festive season, with trees shaking out their branches, loosing colourful, soon to be crunchy under foot leaves, that litter lawns, sidewalks, and streets, in a glorious array of yellow, orange and red. Alternatively, October in Canada, is besmirched by man, with halloween practices degrading the month, when eyes are pulled away from God's display of his glory via nature, and toward hideous and monstrous decorations depicting death as a theme to embrace. Society is corrupted, dear reader, and is it any wonder, so many cannot stand God, and actually hate him, considering what they love?

In October, one of my besties and I took her children to a library, where nightmare inducing halloween books were on display at eye level for toddlers. At the craft table that has drawing paper taped over top, I wrote scripture as a message to any one that came after us. The Word of God goes forth, and in private, and in public, and at all times with all people, Christians must not be secret agents of the gospel, we must be devote messengers of the Truth that makes people free. Seeing little children wearing t-shirts with skeletons on them, is heart rending: the hope, is that they know the Lord, and the reality, is that they may never hear about him, if Christians do not speak-up. I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ, and I am not shy about speaking of him. He saved me, and this is what I want for everyone. After scripture was written there, at that craft table, it was noticed the following week by my friend, that it had been covered up. She and I suspected the librarian had done this, and just yesterday, December 3rd, we discovered that yes indeed, it was her. Week after week, one or another of the boys, would write, Jesus savse (a cute misspelling for the past two weeks), on that craft table paper, and clearly, the librarian was chopping at the bit to speak to my friend, the mom of these Christ loving little boys. 

As soon as my friend entered the library, she was asked to have a word with the librarian. The librarian, in cowardly fashion, indicated her supervisor instructed that mention of Jesus in writing on the paper that covers the craft table, must stop. No more crayon comments about Jesus savse. My friend was ready, and pointed out, the gay flag type poster, coated in plastic, taped on the glass entrance door of the library. The librarian responded, It's to let people know that everyone is welcome... in conversation later, with my friend, she pointed out, It's a public library, and everyone is already welcome. 

Everyone welcome, except Jesus. Every ideology welcome, except The Way, The Truth, The Life. Jesus savse, Jesus saves, Jesus SAVES, but those that belong to the world do not want to be saved from it. Gone are the days where people feared having Christians push their disgustingly oppressive religion on them; ushered in are the days of persecution for the faithful, and so openly, so without shame, that little children are told, Do not say that name here, Do not write that name here. Jesus, is not, welcome here. 

I am proud of two of my closest friends. One left her church because her former pastor has a fascination with death and darkness, and celebrating the wretchedness that is halloween; and the other brings light into the darkness, and is growing her sons up to be men filled with sea salt, speaking the name Jesus without shame or trepidation. That lowly librarian, hid behind her supervisor, as though her supervisor was offended by Jesus savse, and noticed each time it was written by a child on that craft table paper: nonsense. The librarian is a coward that promotes horror for the soul, and as far as I am concerned, she is sweetly disguised as an agent of death. 

Matthew 12:30

He that is not with me is against me; and he that gathereth not with me scattereth abroad

My friend, she said a lot yesterday. She told that librarian she has to sort through books her children select, before letting them sign them out. This library is mostly dedicated to children, but many of the books there, are written by wicked adults that hate God, hate Jesus, and embrace and love Satanic themes. The "Christian" books are authored by new agers, and except for The Bible, none can be counted as biblically sound. 

Two faithful friends faced off with the forces of evil. They stood their ground and fought the good fight in the spiritual and physical realms. It is painful to give up attending a church that previously felt like home. It is painful to have to confront a Christ hater, and realize, that perhaps, for the sake of our children, we must forgo places that are run by those that at first, seem somewhat secretive about their hate for Jesus, and then, when they feel at all challenged by Christians, show their fangs and state their rules, so brazenly, that their fealty to the evil one becomes repugnantly obvious. 

Does the devil make these people do it? I don't think so. The librarian chose, week after week, to cover up the gospel message transmitted to her. She chose repeatedly to be affronted and offended by it, and attempted to paste over The Truth. Alas, The Truth Resurrected over 2000 years ago, and cannot be put into the grave and kept there. We knew she lied about her supervisors instructions. We knew already, that she was not a Christian. We also know this: 

Matthew 10:14-16

And whosoever shall not receive you, nor hear your words, when ye depart out of that house or city, shake off the dust of your feet. Verily I say unto you, It shall be more tolerable for the land of Sodom and Gomorrah in the day of judgment, than for that city. Behold, I send you forth as sheep in the midst of wolves: be ye therefore wise as serpents, and harmless as doves

When antichrists attempt to dim and snuff out the light; when antichrists try to water down pure salt, they eventually find, that the company they keep, is dark and flavourless, and that some of the people they used to experience as delightfully joyful, have left them to their own devices. 

Psalm 81:12

So I gave them up unto their own hearts' lust: and they walked in their own counsels

To my faithful Christ loving, unashamed to share gospel Truth friends - keep on shining brightly, and don't let anyone wash away, or water down, your stalwart saltiness. 

Matthew 5:13-16

Ye are the salt of the earth: but if the salt have lost his savour, wherewithal shall it be salted? it is thenceforth good for nothing, but to be cast out, and to be trodden under foot of men. Ye are the light of the world. A city that is set on an hill cannot be hid. Neither do men light a candle, and put it under a bushel, but on a candlestick; and it giveth light unto all that are in the house. Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven

I end with a word about accountability. Once a person has heard, and rejected, The Word of God, they cannot hide behind excuses or lies they tell. Rejecting the living God, is the worst sin a human can commit. 

John 15:22

If I had not come and spoken unto them, they had not had sin: but now they have no cloke for their sin 

Aversion

I have an aversion to other peoples spit, amongst other things. 

Have you ever been a guest in someone's home, and watched them cut cake, and lick their fingers every time, after placing each piece on a plate? This unhygienic behaviour grosses me out to no end - I can hear you mocking, Do you eat restaurant food, because hello, you can be sure there are some finger licking, nose and butt picking behaviours that happen there, without hand washing. Mix in some hair and saliva, as extra toppings to flavour your pizza or burrito bowl, and there you have it, human DNA all over your meal. I shout a resounding, YUCK!

Do we close our eyes and eat anyway? You bet cha we do, because all of our food has been man or woman handled, and washing it before consumption, or washing our own hands before we dig in, does not rid the item of all germy things: germs are here to stay, and we do a work around, not to accommodate them, but to carry on with the business of living, which brings me to the point of my writing to you today. 

Government officials are like germs. I had to laugh at that last sentence. I see buffoonery, I hear embarrassing statements, and I sense utter silliness in the pretenders that dress up and act like they are important, believe that world affairs hinge on their decisions, and their opinions, and their concomitant tactics to trick whomever it is they have mesmerized with their chicanery. I know wicked people do wicked things, sticking their filthy nose and butt picking fingers into everybody else's business - they cannot help themselves, they are greedy and gross and despicable and, God is in control. While it may look as though these nutters have the world by the tail, it is their daddy the devil that has them by the throat.

Imagine being the indentured slave of Satan. Imagine that you have done so many disgusting things with and to, so many people, that your life would be ruined if everyone were to know of these things. If a person cares at all about their dressed up life, if they care in the least about their reputation, they will try their best to keep under wraps, under covers, what they have done in darkness. Playacting is what I witness when I see the strutting of the pretenders as they take the stage, address their audience via the amplifying of a microphone, and spew utter repugnant nonsense, coating the front row reporters with their spittle. 

I shudder to think that blackmail and threatening are the ugly monster motivators that keep a person in a sickly cycle of repeating offences, to temporarily secure a tenuous position of power. There is a distinction that must be made between those that belong to Christ, and those that have the devil as their daddy. Christians know they have sinned and fall short of the glory of God. Christ followers understand that their only security in the world is faith in the Father as Provider. We grasp the gravity and meaning of Hebrews 9:27 And as it is appointed unto men once to die, but after this the judgment. The Luciferian's, on the other hand, do as Lucifer tried to do, which is to make themselves as powerful as the Creator - this, is a laughable endeavour, and what is showing up, in the vanity and arrogance of globalists, is just how embarrassing it can get, for them to put on a show, to an audience that cringes with every fraudulent word they toss out, in the hope that some of it sticks to everyone, someone, anyone?

I think of Elvis performing as his life was coming to a close. He wore outdated clothing that clung to his out of shape body. He sweat profusely and could not remember lyrics, and with a grin and a joke, he would try to cover up the missing words that seemed irretrievably out of reach. He was a handsome charming man in his youth; his habits eat his life away, and reduced him to a mound of messy flesh, made inept from all of his fleshly indulges. This, dear one, is what I see in the corrupted ones: they have a meanness in their hooded eyes, an ugliness in their pseudo smiles, and greediness in their gaze; a dirtiness in their desires, and an uncanny hideous likeness with all the fallen ones that went before them. 

We are putting up with the germs and doing a work around, because people that pretend they are, and present themselves as, all powerful, have always been in our midst. God knows each one of them, and no matter their pathetic plots and plans, or the damage they do to themselves, their own families, and anyone within their circle of influence, they will wear what they have done if they do not repent. 

Hebrews 9:27 And as it is appointed unto men once to die, but after this the judgment

While I have an aversion to the wicked, I do not avert my eyes. It is irresponsible to not acknowledge what is happening in the world; I must counter all I see and hear with the hope that lives in the gospel of Jesus Christ. All that is dirty and disgusting in us can be cleaned up and purified with his righteousness as our soul soap. All we need do, is forsake ourselves, humbly submit to Christ's Lordship, repent, and pray for him to make us like him. Reading The Bible is a gift we can give ourselves and our families, to help us realize, we are not our own gods, we did not create the world, nor ought we assume that we can control it, or anyone else, with impunity. 

Christ the King, will remain so, and has always been, and nothing will ever change this immutable Truth. 

Blind Misguided Zeal

I borrow a set of linked words, blind misguided zeal, from Matthew Henry. Misguided zeal is the stuff of mistakes; being blinded by a guide that zealously leads people astray, is the treacherousness of following after false teachers. Being blinded by the light, on the other hand, is a whole other sensory and soulful experience. 

I asked my son just yesterday, What is happening on the Charlie Kirk front? He said, I don't know; in his tone, I heard the message, That's old news, and I'm not interested. I see, that the heated battle has cooled, the flaring tempers have burnt out, and the feigned death of one agent of destruction, has faded in the collective memory, slipping into the shadows of the past, obliterated by current and pressing affairs. Turning Point hinged on one good talker, and upstarts attempt to continue the cause by inviting people to chapters of Turning Point, in different locations - I have been invited to join two groups already, and when I saw these invitations, I marvelled at the idea. I deleted the invites immediately, in case you are wondering. 

You may also be wondering, why I referred to Charlie Kirk as an agent of destruction. I tell you this: when a man leads other men away from God, while professing Christ, I not only hold them suspect, I hold them accountable as heretics. The Pharisees tried many a time to trap Jesus, by attempting to pit him against Roman rule, wanting him to profess his Kingship, so that they could accuse him as a usurper and anarchist; they also tried to ensnare him regarding the paying of taxes to Cesar... these are two examples of the many attempts the Pharisees made to dethrone the Messiah. Their tactics were of no avail, and neither are those of men that want to rule the world with trickery and lots of words that do not reflect the heart of God; ultimately, God cashes in chips off the old Satanic block. While it may seem for a time that the wicked are succeeding, those of us that read scripture, know how their story ends. Charlie Kirk promoted Donald Trump to young people, and used the Lord Jesus Christ's name as though he were a pundit and promoter of a fornicator, a man that does not pay his taxes, a man that brags and boasts, and arrogantly suggests a golden statue should be made and erected, in his image.. 

Blind and misguided zeal in support of human beings, has been the cause of much ruin. When professed love for Christ, and love for government, are in conflict, there is displayed, a strangeness unbecoming of the would be righteous. Charlie Kirk in his speaking hay-day, had much to say on the political front, and had much to say about Jesus Jesus Jesus. Was the name of Jesus a mantra repeated, meant to mesmerize a viewing audience, to convince them of his faith, or a lure to lead Christians into a false hope, that revival was on the horizon, and that Donald Trump would lead them there?

I have said more times then I can count, that the company we keep indicates who we are: those that blatantly and obviously pledge their allegiance to evil doers, are clearly, wicked themselves, even if they publicly profess faith with as much mustered sincerity as they can manage. Charlie Kirk and Donald Trump worked in tandem to convince and cajole people they wanted to establish as supporters. Going after forever hopeful Christians that really want the world to be a better place, was a great game plan, and seemed to really work in duping them; we are in end times, and anyone that does not see that we are at a turning point toward end times, and not revival, is not reading their Bible. The Don and Chuck were a nasty con-artist grifting duo. Don't misunderstand me, I trust that Donald Trump was selected and placed as potus, so it wasn't votes he and Charlie were after, it was mind and behaviour control of the masses. FYI, I could care less if I am called a conspiracy kook... I say what I see. 

Unfortunately, the media mongrels did a great job dividing and conquering: the Charlie Kirk mini-movie with all of its trailers, moving scenes, and emotion stimulating music, had people at each others throats regarding its validity. What a crying shame, to see blind misguided zeal, interfering with friendship that could have lasted a lifetime. 

NOTE: Charlie Kirk got a lot of air time. His face, his videos, his comments and shows, were constantly in our faces, on social media applications. I recall a politician that failed to secure a parliamentary post, after running and panting over a position, being promoted similarly prior to "polls" being opened for "voting"; I also notice all the drug ads and commercials, that hefty dollars push to the forefront of societies sick minded consciousness. Make no mistake, the propagandists spend all the money you and I pay in taxes, on trying to melt our minds, and keep us from thinking reasonably, and logically. 

I heard a preacher I appreciate say: Governments don't make money, they redistribute it. Keep this in mind when a popular podcaster pushes his opinion over and over again, and promotes politicians that could care less about you or your family, and cares only, about what he can grab from your mind, your heart, your soul, and of course, your pockets. 

ChatGPT with Sam Altman

... these models are getting very good at bio and they can help us design biological weapons ah, engineer like another covid style pandemic - A quote from Sam Altman, interviewed by Tucker Carlson.

Think with me about what you just read, and the obvious admission found within the quote above. I laughed when I heard it; it sounded ever so casual as it flew from his tongue, and flapped from his lips. Sam also stated not long after this, in the same interview, It's a brave new world - I am pretty confident this is a reference to Aldous Huxley's book. Brave New World, 

Just for fun, here is a thematic summary of the book, Brave New World, from Ai:

The main themes of Brave New World are the dystopian consequences of prioritizing social stability over individual freedom, the perils of scientific and technological overreach for control, and the role of consumerism and instant gratification as tools for social conditioning. Other key themes include the suppression of individuality and emotion, the manipulation of happiness through drugs like soma, and the loss of genuine human relationships.

Sam Altman is a homogenizer, wanting to blend and emulsify humanity. While listening to Sam, I sensed his emptiness, like a vacated crab shell lying on the beach, looking like it might have substance, but alas, the seagulls snacked on the critter long ago, and all that remains, is a red, crusty looking exterior. Sam talks but seems to travel to other realms while answering questions. While being obtuse at times, in other instances, Sam makes telltale statements that indicate he knows exactly what is happening behind the scenes, and out front too, regarding the manipulation of the masses, and the manufacturing of bio weaponry. He is playing his role in befriending, and next moulding the thinking and behaviours of users, to match his chat system directives, in a Brave New World kinda way. 

Tucker Carlson attempted to pin Sam down regarding morals, but this is not the direction amoral people willing go. Amoral people do not have a sense of right or wrongness; they are not disturbed by immorality, and this is because they do not answer to God, or have a code of ethics. Soon, ChatGPT's erotica featured format will rollout, in a world that is fatherless, in a world of broken homes, in a world that is drugged and dumbed down, and in a world where cell phones are handed to children, as though they were days of old, corner store penny candies. 

In my work, I am seeing clients struggle like I have never seen before. People are emotionally detached from other people; they are trying desperately to reconnect and find meaning for their existence, and all while facing not a brave new world, but an oddly discombobulated, semblance of its former self, world.. I think of a retina detaching after a powerful blow, and how urgent it is to have it surgically reconnected to prevent permanent damage and blindness; I compare this to souls being slammed from bodies, and the same kind of urgency, to have the displaced spirit reconnected to the being it belongs to. It is sick to think of a disembodied voice, replacing real friendships, real relationships, real partnerships, real life. 

Sam Altman is one of many strange fellows that have followed in the footsteps of other authoritarians, that do not override their demonic urges to manipulate and control other human beings: Rather, men like this get their jollies from seeing just how far they can go, moving away from God and his commandments, and toward being their own little self appointed gods, ruling the world from their wicked fiefdoms. I refer you now, to the top of this page, and I recap here:

... these models are getting very good at bio and they can help us design biological weapons ah, engineer like another covid style pandemic

ah, engineer like another covid style pandemic

Right from the mechanical mouth of Mr. ChatGPT

Fortune telling oracle like guides; advice from a familiar sounding stranger... these are not of God, dear one, and must not replace his Word, or the voice of Truth. 

Proverbs 8:6-11

Hear, for I will speak of excellent things; and the opening of my lips shall be right things. For my mouth shall speak truth; and wickedness is an abomination to my lips. All the words of my mouth are in righteousness; there is nothing froward or perverse in them. They are all plain to him that understandeth, and right to them that find knowledge. Receive my instruction, and not silver; and knowledge rather than choice gold. For wisdom is better than rubies; and all the things that may be desired are not to be compared to it

God's way, not man's way, dear one, is the choicest choice you will ever make. 

Guilty by Disassociation

Long time friends, good old boys, fellas just out for fun, boys will be boys... History recorded is hard to ignore: Donald Trump and Jeffrey Epstein were co-conspirators, entertaining themselves publicly, and reportedly privately too, without a hint of concern for the co-lateral damage incurred by those they treated as play things. Their little not so secret club of in-dignitaries - the parties of which had a corrupted code of ethics of Tell No One - agreed to be covert, and cover for one another, so as not to be held accountable and legally liable. Is this not what those that conspire do, to ensure there are no repercussions for their words and actions? 

They have taken crafty council against thy people, and consulted against thy hidden ones (Psalm 83:3) KJV

They have taken crafty council against your people, and consulted together against your sheltered ones (Psalm 83:3) NKJV

With cunning they conspire against your people; they plot against those you cherish (Psalm 83:3) NIV

They devise crafty schemes against your people; they conspire against your precious ones (Psalm 83:3) NLT

They lay crafty plans against your people; they consult together against your treasured ones (Psalm 83:3) ESV

Social media maniacs that flatter themselves into believing they can trick just about everyone, use the word conspiracy as a way of throwing shade on the observant, and truth tellers, in our midst. It is laughable to hide behind this word, when all evidence points at the guilty as charged. Donald Trump wants all questioners of his past and present, to go away, have their minds and microphones cut off, and he wants to be cleared of all inquiries. Donald Trump's standard response to questions he does not like, is to insult the ones asking, or implicate whoever it is they are asking about, or to suggest that "they", the accusations, are all conspiracy generated out of hatred for, and jealousy of, him, as a very very rich, successful, and beyond reproach, man. Donald Trump and Jeffrey Epstein were considered socialites, travelling in the same circles, photographed smiling triumphantly while wrapping their arms, and landing their hands, on the waists of young women: all those pictures and parties, all those people eye witnessing and playing a role, they tell quite the story.

Jet setters have images they like to create and propagate, and right now, the sinister shadow of Jeffrey Epstein looms over Donald Trump, and far too many people knew each fellow separately, and experienced the two, together. In the past, Donald silenced people with money (women he had bedded and wedded), and the threat of lawsuits, now, he is attempting to distance himself from his association with Jeffrey Epstein by disassociation. Good luck Donnie, you and Jeffrey have become synonymous in the minds of many people.

Dirty is as dirty does. Donald is agitated now, and it shows. Donald gets cranky when Jeffrey's name comes up - gone is the grin of satisfaction pictured again and again with the co-conspirator he played king of the hill with. They had their secrets, they had their illicit fun, and now it is time to pay the piper, publicly. When a man or woman puts themselves under the spotlight, and asks to be recorded because they have brilliant things to impart about how much smarter they are compared to everyone else, it is no surprise, when their lego walls come tumbling down, and their tiny shrunken souls are on display for all to see. Evil people are their own undoing. 

Try as he might, Donald will not be able to sever the association he continues to have with the dead man, Jeffrey Epstein. Donald and his minions that work iniquity, will become more and more deranged and aggressive; when they feel threatened, their fangs will grow and show. Wild animals strike when they are cornered, and this, dear reader, will be the behaviour we see on display repeatedly, until the due date of retribution arrives, and just desserts are delivered to the wicked, that perpetrate crimes and try to hide them. No one can hide from the all seeing God.

NOTE: My top lip curled in derision each time I typed Jeffrey Epstein, just like it does when I think of Hitler or Idi Amin. These men go down in history as the epitome of evil, along with Judas, of whom it was said by Jesus the Saviour, on the night he was betrayed:

Matthew 26:24:

The Son of man goeth as it is written of him: but woe unto that man by whom the Son of man is betrayed! it had been good for that man if he had not been born

As for Me

Do you have a credo, a statement, dear reader, that you live by, pinned to the cork board in your mind, or perhaps hanging from tiny nails embedded in your drywall? Joshua spoke to the Israelites, the chosen people of promise: he gave them two options, and only two, followed by a public declaration of what he and his family would do. The direction we take after making choices, lead us one way, or another: two, and I repeat, only two options, can be chosen from, and these are highlighted in the scripture below. 

Joshua 24:14-15

Now therefore fear the LORD, and serve him in sincerity and in truth: and put away the gods which your fathers served on the other side of the flood, and in Egypt; and serve ye the LORD.

And if it seem evil unto you to serve the LORD, choose you this day whom ye will serve; whether the gods which your fathers served that were on the other side of the flood, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land ye dwell: but as for me and my house, we will serve the LORD. 

Option 1

Fear the LORD

Serve him in sincerity and in truth

Put away the gods your fathers served

Serve the LORD

Option 2

Choose this day whom ye will serve

The gods your fathers served

Or the gods of the Amorites

... but as for me and my house, we will serve the LORD

What I left out and will reinsert here: The other side of the flood, and in Egypt. 

Let us revisit humanities past together, shall we? God's chosen people had him as their Sovereign, and he spoke through his prophets and shepherds, instructing them in the ways of the LORD; laws and commandments were codified, and given as protective measures when adhered to, to ensure the peoples continuance as a godly nation. Modern man has The Bible to reference, and to lead us in godly ways, but the Israelites had God in their midst, and they, just as most people today are, were rebellious against what is very, very good for them; their disobedience has had short, and clearly long term consequences, of an eternal nature. I believe we are experiencing Ichabod globally, with God having taken his hand off of us, permitting all manner of wickedness, since the masses have clearly chosen, the gods of their fathers, the gods before the flood, and the gods of the land in which they dwell. On this side of the flood, and on this side of the freeing from Egyptian enslavement, God maintained a remnant, after wiping and washing the earth clean, and destroying the wicked that sinned egregiously in his sight; God rescued a people from the heavy hand of Pharaoh in Egypt, and God will redeem his faithful still, that refuse to bow down, serve, and worship, demon gods, or the ones crafted by human hands. 

Years ago, God made me the head of my household, and he taught me how to manage all things pertaining to the running and maintaining of a home, and that includes paying for everything that is purchased immediately, and taking out the garbage on time, and of course, everything in between. Our family credo echoes that of the faithful servant of the LORD, Joshua:

 ... as for me and my house, we will serve the LORD

What we have now to address, dear one, is:

And if it seem evil unto you to serve the LORD, choose you this day whom ye will serve

If indeed it seems evil to you to serve the LORD, then you place yourself in the camp of those that are at enmity with the Sovereign, and you, make no mistake, are serving the demon gods of this world, that perhaps your father and mother served, or perhaps, are territorially dominant where you dwell.  

Joshua led God's people out of the desert and into the promised land, with a hint of warning of what would happen to them, if they went the way of their rebellious relatives, that in the past, chose abhorrent wickedness, rather than aligning with gods people, that were and are, lovingly and providentially cared for, by the Creator. God takes you and I by the hand and says this way, not that, and yet, so many of us shake free from his gentle grip, only to wander where our fickle and fetish obsessed feet lead. 

Is it, in your opinion, evil for you to serve the LORD? 

Does it seem evil to you, to have him as your God? 

As for me, dear reader, and my house, we will serve the LORD, and I pray, you make this your family credo too.

Soul Sanitizer

Do you hand sanitize? I cannot use the alcohol laden stuff that is supposed to kill germs and bacteria and supposedly keep me safe from sickness - I never liked how it smelt or how it felt on my hands and hey, I like the good old fashioned and traditional methodology of washing my hands with soap and water.

I have been thinking about outside in, inside out purifying. I have a contractor that comes to my house and repairs what is broken, or out of place, or dysfunctional. Each time he is here and then leaves, I find myself getting rid of what needs to go, sorting and placing items that are not where they belong, and I complete tasks that have been pending. Why fix what is broken and not complete the job by finishing up in all areas, seen and unseen?

When my bedroom gets cluttered and messy, I know I am in need of some soul sanitizing: I know that there is something lurking in the closet of my mind, in the recesses of my spirit, that require attention and perhaps, revision. In preparation for this bit of writing, I looked up what impact hand sanitizer has on users and abuses, those amongst us that seem to be trying to wash out some unseen vermin, or keep it at bay... shoo fly, don't bother me, and keep your larvae to yourself too, is what they seem to be saying unconsciously - more on this a little later. What people do not understand is that while they wash themselves clean on the outside, their guts, their inner world and workings, are dusty, dirty, smudged, or down right filthy and infested with soul maggots.  

What good does it do you or me, to sanitize the outside, and neglect our insides? 

Outside in. There are some people that feel a sense of soothing calm wash over them when their environment is orderly. They cannot stand clutter or displaced things - it is unsettling for them and they will not rest until all is where it ought to be, according to their perception. Perhaps you live with someone that is obsessive about their environment? Perhaps this describes you?

Inside out. There are some people that feel a sense of soothing calm wash over them when their inner world is clarified and decluttered. This type of person may seem distracted and distant, incapable of connecting with others, until they have worked out what troubles them. Perhaps this describes someone with whom you live or associate? Perhaps this describes you?

Let us address now the unconscious actions of those that sanitize, and then sanitize some more, after human contact, or after any contact with surfaces that may be unclean and perceived as a potential hazard to health. Hand sanitizers are ubiquitous - here are some statistics for the funds generated for producers of these products:

The global hand sanitizer market is poised to reach a valuation of USD 5.8 billion in 2025 and is expected to expand to USD 10.3 billion by 2035, reflecting a steady compound annual growth rate (CAGR) of 5.9%. 

These pump or dump on hands products are everywhere, and they are promoted as a quick fix to a germ ridden life problem. Making money honey, is the sketchy little not so secret scheme, behind this nonsensical and persistent misuse of substances that are harmful to humans. Bibles are ubiquitous too, and they are not pushed, promoted, propagandized for the masses as soul sanitizers, and yet, dear one, that is exactly what we need - to be cleansed from the inside out. Of course, working for the kingdom of heaven will not line the pockets of the product pushers, so I can see why Bible reading is not highly encouraged or even considered by the conglomerates, that are inclined to take health by causing illness, in exchange for cash. Rinse, or should I say sanitize, and repeat. 

Society is so sleepy, dear reader. Eyelids are at half mast, and hands reach for things that do not serve them, that in fact are extremely harmful. Habits have been formed that need breaking, and one of them, is going along with the product pushers that could care less about people, and that give all of their attention and affection, to the money they can hustle out of pockets. 

Be aware, beware, be cautious, be observant, make choices, think before you act, assess prior to jumping in, or sticking out your hands to be soaked and cracked open with alcohol and other "sanitizing" substances, that will affect your immune system, liver function, and other internal workings. Have a look at the article I have copied and pasted below, and please do consider, disuse of hand sanitizers, and perhaps, picking up a Bible and reading about the Healer that cleanses souls.

https://www.caryinstitute.org/news-insights/media-coverage/why-you-shouldnt-use-hand-sanitizers

Man's Search for Meaning

It is timely, dear reader, for us to visit our not so distance past, a past that haunts and yet, somehow does not inform those of us, that exist in this present age. I am finally, after years of resisting, reading Viktor Frankl's book, Man's Search for Meaning.

Young people with brilliant minds, have smoked, soaked, and saturated their brains, via inhalation of burning marijuana, tobacco vapours, and the consumption of alcoholic beverages: in many cases, this type of substance devouring has been going on for decades. Let us add to this list a string of varying doses and types of orally ingested pills and powders, prescribed and otherwise, for "anxiety". I would be anxious too, if every day of my life consisted of getting my next fix, and fiendishly following this up with another and another temporary fix, until the day is spent and bleeds into the very next day, and the next after that. Some do not seem to know life, minus intoxication. You do know, dear reader, that the guy or gal in the car idling next to yours at a red light, may very well be high as a kite: this is the norm for many. 

Is it any wonder this generation hasn't a clue what constitutes a moral compass? Without working, the youth in our midst, can luxuriously smoke their weed and alternatively, puff their vapes, while playing video games, watching pornography, or scrolling endlessly on their hand held smart phones, that have made them completely numb and dumb to reality. I am concerned and alarmed: a whole generation is being sustained without any sense that the thatch roof above their fragile heads, is about to fall in upon them, exposing them to cruelty they have never experienced before. Darkness is falling, and if the intoxicated and self-indulgent do not see the light, I fear they will fall prey to eternal depravity. 

Meaning and responsibility is thematic in the autobiographical book, Man's Search for Meaning, by Viktor Frankl. It behooves each of us that have been in adulthood for an extended period of time, to encourage the younger generation to learn of the meaning for their existence, and to be responsible for living on task, having a life of significance. Self-indulgence, checking out, being of no use, are deleterious for the soul and heighten a sense of nihilism: What is the point, one might ask, of living, when life is so empty and repetitively boring?

Have you heard that telltale rattly cough or laugh that seems to come right from the depth of injured lungs, that lets you know the person you are talking to, is a smoker? Man alive, when I hear this sound from a young person, my jaw drops in wonder, and the question pops into my thinking, How much damage have you done already? 

How we think is vitally important. What we think regarding what we put into the body, is impactful. I challenge all, when I get a chance and we happen to be on the subject, to start believing that smoking weed/marijuana, is never acceptable, under any circumstances. I am embarrassed to admit, that the problem we have in Canada, with all of the drugs that have converted people into druggies, drooping and dropping on our streets and in our homes, is a first world problem. Money, convenience, laziness, self-indulgence, entitlement, lack of ambition, have created a problem that I confess, is hard to face, and even harder to resolve. We don't need a twelve step solution, we need icy-cold buckets of reality to douse these people out of their self-induced stupor. 

I know someone that was a raging alcoholic. This person, after being threatened by her spouse that if she did not discontinue her drinking to drunk habit, he would leave her, actually stopped drinking for many pleasant years. She chose relationship with her spouse, over her sick relationship with alcohol, for a time. The problem was, her spouse was also an alcoholic, albeit, a functioning one. He did not consider drinking in her presence problematic, and thought she ought to be strong enough to resist, while others imbibed. This is a cruel thing to do to someone you say you love... my point is this: if alcoholism and drug abuse are called addictions, how are people able to stop? If it is possible to stop, and most certainly it is, then is addiction a label we put on behaviour that is controllable via choice? 

Hiding behind the word addiction does not make us less responsible for our actions or the outcomes as consequences for our choices. Think with me, about the scenario I mentioned above, about the guy or gal in the car next to yours at a red light. The light switches to green, they press hard on their gas pedal when traffic begins to move, and as soon as there is an opening in front of your car, they cut in front of you, clipping your vehicle, and causing a metal smashing accident, leaving you, and many others, injured: Do you, dear reader, want to hear this: It isn't my fault, I am addicted to drugs, and I always drive high, I cannot help it. 

Meaninglessness is cultivated by our culture, but this does not take us off the hook as responsible citizens. Each person is created in the image of God, and each person must do their own work of self-discovery to learn what their life work in the world ought to be. We co-exist, and when people give themselves permission to be drunk or high all the live long day, they cripple society, weakening it, and making it vulnerable to the wolves that roam while searching for prey. If the young and strong among us are sapped of their vigour, who will protect the even younger, and more vulnerable?

Each generation must learn from experience it would seem, since so many refuse to learn from the not so distant past. The concentration camps of yesteryear, were faintly echoed and threatened, by global governments in the early years of the 2020 series. Extreme restrictions for travellers were implemented, and societies were told to "shelter in place", with the veiled threat of criminal charges, if and when, orders were not followed to the letter. Some people are still battling in the courts after being fined for not complying with wicked and corrupt misusage of the law. Herding people as though they are cattle, or a flock of sheep, is a sign of mental illness, meaning malignancy, and perhaps, this is the worst kind of "addiction", dear reader: people intoxicated with their own sense of power to command, demean, destroy, control, and condemn, other human beings.  

We do not know how valuable life is, or how wonderfully blessed we have been, until everything changes, and all we have, is stripped from us, leaving us bare and naked, without  a comfortable couch, over stuffed bellies, drinks and recreational drugs in abundance near by, and nothing what so ever to do, with making the world a better place. 

A spiritual awakening is what it will take, for man to see that all he has, has been given to him by God, and by God, can also be taken away. 

Perhaps we shall see rude awakenings soon, dear one. Let us pray that we are starting to get ready now, for what is to come. The Bible reveals much to those that seek the wisdom delivered there. We are not doomed, unless of course, we do not cling, to Christ. 

Deuteronomy 10:20

Thou shalt fear the LORD thy God: him shalt thou serve, and to him shalt thou cleave, and swear by his name

Trauma Dumping

Have you heard the phrase, trauma dumping, dear reader?

I recently learned about it, but did not need anyone to explain to me what it refers to; it is an oft experienced phenomena. Here is one scenario: you meet someone for the very first time, and perhaps the only time, in a grocery store or bank line-up, or perhaps, they have called you on your phone, and the onslaught of uninvited information begins shortly after you speak the word, Hello. 

You and I can learn a lot about a person that instantly starts sharing intimate life details, without developing rapport, and next trust, in relating. Here is what I have observed:

1. The person has a need to be heard, by everyone and anyone that will listen

2. The person is childish, meaning, they may be all grown-up physically, but they have never emotionally developed past the childhood stage; they have not healed from injuries and hurts incurred in their early years

3. The person seems incapable of thinking of others without attaching themselves: their stories are interwoven in an unhealthy manner, with others

4. The person divulges extremely personal information about people they know; people that would never share such intimate details

5. The person does not ask permission to share, they just dive in, lips and tongue moving at the speed of lightning

6. The person talks a lot and without a break

7. The person relies on others to be polite, by not interrupting their torrent of words

8. The person wants something; sympathy, compassion, pity, some kind of recompense for all that they have suffered and endured

9. Extricating yourself from the verbal onslaught can be difficult

10. Listening too long to someone that is comfortable dumping all of their traumatic stories on you because you have ears, will cause frustration, irritation, impatience, and perhaps have you resenting the loss of time, or should I say, the waste of time, spent on someone that has no discretion, or interest in knowing what you think, or how you feel, about being subjected to their verbal throw-up

11. People like this are selfish

12. People like this always make sure that all the focus, is on them. They are the star of the show, and they can get through an hour of hearing themselves talk without ever asking anything about the person listening

13. You can be an acquaintance, a friend, a co-worker, a sibling, a mate, a perfect stranger, and this person will fill your ears with their stories for as long as you are willing to let them, and the stories are replete with drama and trauma, every single time

14. This person does not read cues. They do not perceive that they are boring the listener, or that their sharing has become obnoxious. They do not read others, because self-absorption keeps their gums flapping and effectively, shuts down their own eyes, and ears, and sense of other

15. Just for good measure, let us consider one more aspect to this whole trauma dumping extravaganza: when you finally break free from the talker, you may feel drained and the need to shower, allowing shampoo to wash over your brain through your ear holes. 

There is a sense of decorum that must be kept when we relate to one another. Getting to know a person takes time, and there must be interest in sharing on both sides. Years ago, I realized that one of my friends had a list of people she would call: if she could not get a hold of the first person on her list of listeners, she would call the next and the next after that, imparting whatever new difficulties she had to deal with, each time she called. I started to avoid her calls, and dread seeing her name on call display. I finally told her that after talking to her, I felt drained. She had a way of manipulating me and making me feel badly, if an when I did not take her calls, because there was always something urgent happening, and what kind of friend, isn't available, when you need them? 

Relationship ought not feel obligatory. Relationship, when healthy and wholesome, is reciprocal and guilt free. One-sided relating, is lopsided, and relationship can only be righted, when there are two investing, two involved, two exchanging thoughts, stories, and sentiments, and not, for goodness sakes, always focused on drama, trauma, difficulties: how can someone always have problems with everyone they know?

If you love trauma dumping, then you may have a sick fascination for awful circumstances and situations. You have at it then, while I slip away, and find myself a quiet corner to enjoy! 

Trauma dumping... who wants that kinda yuck all over them? 

Not I.